40下 老马整理旧生涯 晓棠思索新人生（1 / 2）

<h3>40下 老马整理旧生涯 晓棠思索新人生（第1页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA56eS6K6w5L2P44CQeGlhb3lhbndlbnh1ZeOAkeeyvuW9qeaXoOW8ueeql+WFjei0ue+8geWMruS5j+WIsOS+peW5uOOAgeiHquWNkeWIsOiHquWkp+OAgeeqmOi/q+WIsOWGsuWKqOOAgeayoeeUqOWIsOayiei/t+W5u+aDs+KAlOKAlOi/meato+aYr+ept+iLpuS5i+S6uuS4jueUn+S/seadpeeahOW/g+aAp+OAgjwvcD4='));</script>

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越紧张越单调，越单调越绝望，越绝望越得过且过！<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+55Sf5p2l5rOo5a6a55qE6LSr55ig44CB6Ieq6Zet44CB5YGP5omn44CB55uy5LuO4oCU4oCU5Y2z5L6/6IWw57yg5LiH6LSv77yM5Lmf6Zq+56C044CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

生来注定的贫瘠、自闭、偏执、盲从——即便腰缠万贯，也难破。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Lq65LiO5Lq655Sf5p2l5pei5LiN5bmz562J44CC6ZW/55u45pyJ576O5LiR77yM576O55qE5aSa5Zyo6YKj5a+M6LS15LmL5a6277yb5aS06ISR5pyJ6IGq5oWn5oSa56yo77yM6IGq5oWn5byA5oKf55qE5aSa5Zyo6YKj5a+M6LS15LmL5a6277yb5a625bqt5pWZ6IKy44CB55Sf5rS75Lmg5oCn5pyJ5LyY5Yqj6auY5LiL77yM5LyY55qE5Lmf5aSa5Zyo6YKj5a+M6LS15LmL5a6277yb6LSi5Lqn6LWE5pys5pyJ5rWF6JaE5rex5Y6a77yM5rex5Y6a55qE5YWo5Zyo6YKj5a+M6LS15LmL5a6244CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

人与人生来既不平等。长相有美丑，美的多在那富贵之家；头脑有聪慧愚笨，聪慧开悟的多在那富贵之家；家庭教育、生活习性有优劣高下，优的也多在那富贵之家；财产资本有浅薄深厚，深厚的全在那富贵之家。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuO5Y+k6Iez5LuK6K665LiA5Liq5Lq677yM6Zmk5LqG6ZW/55u444CB5aS06ISR44CB5Lmg5oCn44CB6LSi5Lqn4oCU4oCU6L+Y5pyJ5LuA5LmI77yf6ZW/55u45LiO6LSi5Lqn5Yeg5LmO5piv5aSp55Sf5rOo5a6a77yM5aS06ISR5LiO5Lmg5oCn5ZCO5aSp5Y+v5L+u5Lmg77yM6K666LW35L+u5Lmg77yM56m36Ium5YS/5aWz5pel5pel6YCD5LiN6L+H5p+057Gz5rK555uQ44CB5ai25aa755Sf5a2Q77yM5ZOq6YeM5YaN5pyJ6aKd5aSW55qE56m65a2Q44CB5aSa5L2Z55qE6YeR6ZKx5Y675L+u5Lmg44CC6Ieq5Y+k6aOe6buE6IW+6L6+55qE6Ium5Ye66Lqr77yM5bCR55+j44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

从古至今论一个人，除了长相、头脑、习性、财产——还有什么？长相与财产几乎是天生注定，头脑与习性后天可修习，论起修习，穷苦儿女日日逃不过柴米油盐、娶妻生子，哪里再有额外的空子、多余的金钱去修习。自古飞黄腾达的苦出身，少矣。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

还好，还有希望，梅梅就是希望。钟家铺子里每日也就钟雪梅回来以后热闹一番。大姑娘每每一回家总爱追着妈妈或爷爷聊工作同事、聊同学朋友、聊大学未来，每日也总不忘腾出个十几分钟或一个小时来和学成聊学习、比算数、讲笑话。十七岁的灵魂，蓬勃激昂，那朝气和活力彷如阳光一般驱走寒凉。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

自从小姨出国后，钟雪梅住在铺子里。再有十来天自己便离开广东上大学了，一走大半年不能回来。她知妈妈一个人住，很想陪着妈妈，但明智的姑娘懂得爷爷和弟弟更需要她。住在铺子里晚上能陪一陪爷爷、逗一逗弟弟，第二天也能趁些爷爷为她买早餐、水杯装水、临走递包的关爱。对她来说，现在的生活是可以接受的，未来的生活是有希望的，独独一见父亲，十七岁的姑娘如何也想不通人生这个大话题。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

照旧，钟理每晚九点十点出去喝酒，午夜后回来，第二天睡到十一二点。雪梅早起上班时见惯了父亲的狼狈，晚上下班回来时也习惯了父亲的冷漠。他们之间曾经无话不说，父女关系远远亲过母女关系和爷孙关系，如今，这一对父女之间一天怕是连三句话也说不了。钟雪梅失望又伤心，但气愤和困惑总是盖过了失望和伤心。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Lmf6K645Yuk5aWL5LiK6L+b55qE6Zuq5qKF6K+l5oSf6LCi54i25Lqy44CC5LiA5Liq5aCV6JC95oem5byx44CB5pel5pel6YWS6YaJ55qE54i25Lqy77yM55WZ57uZ5a2Q5aWz55qE57ud5LiN5piv5aCV6JC95oem5byx5ZKM5pel5pel6YWS6YaJ44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

也许勤奋上进的雪梅该感谢父亲。一个堕落懦弱、日日酒醉的父亲，留给子女的绝不是堕落懦弱和日日酒醉。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pio5aSp546p5LqG5LiA5pW05aSp55qE5L2V5a625Lq677yM5Liq5Liq57Sv5b6X5LiN6KGM77yM6ICB6ams5pep5LiK552h5Yiw5LqG5YWr54K577yM6Ie06L+c5ZKM5qGC6Iux5Lmd54K56LW35bqK77yM5b6F6Ie06L+c5Y2B54K55aSa5o+Q552A5pep6aSQ5Zue5p2l5pe277yM5Lik5a2p5a2Q6L+Y5piv6LW35LiN5LqG5bqK44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

昨天玩了一整天的何家人，个个累得不行，老马早上睡到了八点，致远和桂英九点起床，待致远十点多提着早餐回来时，两孩子还是起不了床。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

上午十点半，楼上的周周妈带着周周来了，还提着些她们安徽的土特产。两女人在客厅里说说笑笑，周周兴奋地直奔漾漾房间，睡眼朦胧的漾漾一睁眼竟看到了自己的老朋友，小人儿先是嘿嘿一笑，而后在床上和周周玩起了周周新带来的大玩具。桂英回送给周周妈一小瓶香水，说是昨天在香港专程买的，两女人分享着孩子之间的好些成长趣事。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

周周妈走了以后，漾漾吃了早餐穿好了衣服，两孩子在客厅里嘻嘻哈哈追追打打，说着些大人们听不懂的咿呀话。仔仔累得起不来，吃了午饭继续睡，午后醒来为顾舒语又愁眉不展，一个人窝在小床上捧着手机痴痴发呆。致远不是忙家务，便是在房间对着电脑，家务每天消耗了他太多的时间和精力，中年人特别珍惜自己能坐在电脑前的安静时光。桂英躺在沙发上跟只懒猫似的，时时刻刻手上不离手机，一会是忙工作一会是玩儿，老马总分不清她用手机到底在干什么。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5ZWl5pe25YCZ57uZ5oiR5Lmw56Wo5ZGA77yf4oCd6ICB6ams5YWz5LqG55S16KeG77yM6L2s5aS06Zeu5qGC6Iux44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你啥时候给我买票呀？”老马关了电视，转头问桂英。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5ZGD4oCm4oCm546w5Zyo5bCx5Lmw77yM5L2g6KaB5ZOq5LiA5aSp55qE77yf4oCd5qGC6Iux5LiA5Liq5rex5ZG85ZC477yM55uY6IW/5Z2Q5LqG6LW35p2l44CC5bey57uP5ouW5LqG5Lik5ZGo5LqG77yM6ICB5aS06K+l6LWw5LqG77yM5aW55Lmf5YGa5aW95LqG5b+D55CG5YeG5aSH44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“呃……现在就买，你要哪一天的？”桂英一个深呼吸，盘腿坐了起来。已经拖了两周了，老头该走了，她也做好了心理准备。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6LaK5b+r6LaK5aW95ZCn77yB5oiR6L+Z6ISa5Lmf5aW95LqG77yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“越快越好吧！我这脚也好了！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR5YWI55yL55yL4oCm4oCm4oCd5Yeg5YiG6ZKf5ZCO77yM5qGC6Iux6Zeu4oCc5LiL5ZGo5LiJ55qE6auY6ZOB77yM5oCO5LmI5qC377yf6L+Z5piv5pyA5b+r55qE5LiA6Laf5LqG77yB5piO5ZCO5aSp55qE56Wo5Y2W5a6M5ZWm77yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“我先看看……”几分钟后，桂英问“下周三的高铁，怎么样？这是最快的一趟了！明后天的票卖完啦！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5bGL6YeM5rS75aSa77yM5L2g5LqM5ZOl5LiA5Lq65b+Z5LiN6L+H5p2l77yB5bCx5pif5pyf5LiJ5ZCn77yB4oCd6ICB6ams5LiA5ouN5aSn6IW/77yM566X5piv5a6a5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“屋里活多，你二哥一人忙不过来！就星期三吧！”老马一拍大腿，算是定了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5qGC6Iux54K55LqG6LSt5Lmw77yM5byA5aeL6LWw5rWB56iL77yM6L6T6ICB5aS055qE6Lqr5Lu96K+B44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

桂英点了购买，开始走流程，输老头的身份证。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5aW95ZWm77yB5Lmw5ZWm77yB6auY5YW05LqG5ZCn77yB4oCd5Yeg5YiG6ZKf5ZCO77yM5qGC6Iux5Ly46ZW/6IWw5Li+552A5omL5py66K6p6ICB6ams55yL56Wo5bey6LSt5Lmw5oiQ5Yqf55qE5o+Q56S644CC6ICM5ZCO5qGC6Iux6YeN6Jy35Zyo6Ieq5bex55qE6YKj5Liq5bCP5rKZ5Y+R5LiK77yM5oOz552A5Li06LWw5pe26K+l5Li66ICB5aS05YeG5aSH5Lqb5LuA5LmI5Lic6KW/77yM6LaK5oOz6LaK5aSa77yM6LaK5oOz6LaK5aSa77yM6ISR5a2Q5Lmf5Lmx5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“好啦！买啦！高兴了吧！”几分钟后，桂英伸长腰举着手机让老马看票已购买成功的提示。而后桂英重蜷在自己的那个小沙发上，想着临走时该为老头准备些什么东西，越想越多，越想越多，脑子也乱了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

眼见要走了，老头最最舍不得的是两孩子。仔仔近来总缩在屋里不出来，明后天全有课，一上课人也见不着，说几句贴心话硬是没个机会。漾漾因为周周从老家回来了，两人从早上一块玩，中午一块吃饭，下午一块午休，到此刻已经五点多了，还黏一起玩什么破玩具！老马打算出去走一走，再记记深圳的风景，想找个陪的人也找不着。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Yiw5rex5Zyz5Lul5ZCO77yM5qGC6Iux5Yeg5LmO5rKh5pyJ5Y2V54us6Zmq6L+H5LuW77yM5aW55omL5py66YeM6YKj5LmI5aSa5LqL5YS/77yM6YKj5LmI5aSa6L+Z5Liq576k6YKj5Liq576k77yM5ZCI5L2c5LyZ5Ly044CB5YWs5Y+45ZCM5LqL44CB56S+5Lya5pyL5Y+L44CB55u454af55qE5Lq65LiA5aSn5aCG77yM55m95aSp6IGK44CB5pma5LiK6IGK44CB5ZGo5pyr6L+Y5Zyo6IGK77yM6ICB6ams6Lef5aW56K+05Liq6K+d6L+Y5b6X5YWI5LiT6Zeo5ZCt5LiA5aOw77yM5pyJ5pe25YCZ6K+05LqG5aW95Yeg5Y+l5Lq65a625oSj5rKh5ZCs6KeB77yM56yR5Zi75Zi75Zyw5a+5552A5omL5py65LiN55+l6YGT5Zyo5bmy5LuA5LmI44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

到深圳以后，桂英几乎没有单独陪过他，她手机里那么多事儿，那么多这个群那个群，合作伙伴、公司同事、社会朋友、相熟的人一大堆，白天聊、晚上聊、周末还在聊，老马跟她说个话还得先专门吭一声，有时候说了好几句人家愣没听见，笑嘻嘻地对着手机不知道在干什么。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5Lus55qG5pyJ5ZCE6Ieq55qE55Sf5rS777yM6KKr5Ya36JC955qE6ICB6ams5b+D54Gw5oSP5Ya377yM54us6Ieq5Z2Q5Zyo5pGH5qSF5LiK55yL6L+c5pa56KO455qE5aSp56m644CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他们皆有各自的生活，被冷落的老马心灰意冷，独自坐在摇椅上看远方裸的天空。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6L+Z5LiA6L6I5a2Q77yM6ICB6ams6Iqx5LqG5aSq5aSa55qE57K+5Yqb5oOz6K6p6Ieq5bex5Y+Y5b6X6YeN6KaB44CB6KKr5Lq65YWz5rOo5oiW6ICF5pyJ5ZCN5pyb5pyJ5aiB5L+h77yM5YaN5oW35oWo5Zyw6K+077yM5LuW5oOz6KaB6KKr5Lq66ZOt6K6w44CC5bm05bCR5pe25LuW5bm75oOz552A5YOP6YKj5oiP5paH6YeM55qE6Iux6ZuE5LiA5qC35oiQ5bCx5LiA55Wq5Lyf5Lia77yM6L+Z5bm75oOz5Lit55qE6LGq5rCU6ZqP552A5bm06b6E55qE5aKe6ZW/6YCQ5riQ5Y+Y5b6X6LaK5p2l6LaK55+u5bCP44CB5b6u5byx77yM5pyA5ZCO6YKj6LGq5rCU5LiN6KeJ6Ze06YeN5Zue5Yiw5LqG5oiP5paH6YeM44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

这一辈子，老马花了太多的精力想让自己变得重要、被人关注或者有名望有威信，再慷慨地说，他想要被人铭记。年少时他幻想着像那戏文里的英雄一样成就一番伟业，这幻想中的豪气随着年龄的增长逐渐变得越来越矮小、微弱，最后那豪气不觉间重回到了戏文里。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

后来，当他渐渐意识到生命——是生来注定的命途以后，他寄希望于儿子马兴邦。他在他身上花了很多的心力，那心力远大于他花在老二和老三身上的，如今他混得个什么名堂？谁也说不清楚，恐怕连兴邦自己也说不清楚。村里人只当他是个一事无成娶不着媳妇的浪荡子，可悲的是老马作为父亲也这么认为。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aaC5LuK6ICB5LqG77yM5pep5Y245LiL5LqG6YKj5pu+57uP6K6p6Ieq5bex5peg5q+U6I2j6ICA55qE5Y2R5b6u6IGM5Yqh77yM5b2T5LuW5byA5aeL6K6+5oOz576O5aW955qE5pma5bm05pe277yM5Y205Y+R546w576O5aW956a76Ieq5bex5pyJ5Lqb6Led56a777yM6Jm954S25LuW5pep6LiP5YWl5LqG5pma5bm044CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

如今老了，早卸下了那曾经让自己无比荣耀的卑微职务，当他开始设想美好的晚年时，却发现美好离自己有些距离，虽然他早踏入了晚年。