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<h3>78上 浮世一日百八烦恼 明昧之间六七情欲（第1页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA56eS6K6w5L2P44CQeGlhb3lhbndlbnh1ZeOAkeeyvuW9qeaXoOW8ueeql+WFjei0ue+8gTwvcD4='));</script>

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地上无数根油腥的头发，沙发上一堆汗臭的衣服，床边散落几只酸豆角味儿的袜子；拧成疙瘩的条纹床单，好些天没叠过的格子被子，泪湿又干的棉布枕套；窗缝传来轮胎碾压地面的沙沙声，厨房回响着水龙头漏水的滴答声，阳台上一阵阵秋风吹动衣撑子的叮咚声……黑夜的微光中，有一双眼睛闪闪发光。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW55aSE5Zyo6L+Z5Liq5LiW55WM55qE54mp55CG5Lit5b+D77yM5Y205Y+R546w6Ieq5bex6Lef5LiW55WM55u45LqS6ZqU56a744CC5aW55ri456a75Zyo5ryG6buR55qE5a6H5a6Z77yM5q+P5aSp5LiN5YGc5Zyw6KeC5a+f5Zyw55CD5LiK5Y+R55Sf5LqG5LuA5LmI77yM55yL5b6X55y8552b5YO156Gs5Y205aeL57uI5pyq5om+5Yiw6Ieq5bex5oOz6KaB55qE55S76Z2i44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

她处在这个世界的物理中心，却发现自己跟世界相互隔离。她游离在漆黑的宇宙，每天不停地观察地球上发生了什么，看得眼睛僵硬却始终未找到自己想要的画面。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

累吗？似乎也不累，睡不着或是不想睡；不累吗？如果不累为什么一直缩在床上头脑昏沉，连翻身平躺的力气也没有。好像喝了烈酒神志恍惚，自我检测之后，数个官能异常清醒，她能听得到自己的呼吸或者轻鼾，能体会到自己左胸腔里的心脏扑通扑通在跳，能看见腹部的肌肉随着呼吸一起一伏。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aSE5LqO5LiN55Sf5LiN5q2755qE54q25Ya177yM5YOP5p6B5LqG5peg5bC95Yaw5Ya35Y+I6KeE5b6L6L+Q5Yqo55qE5a6H5a6Z44CC5pyJ5pe25YCZ5aW55aSp55yf5Zyw5bm75oOz5b2T5LiA5Liq5Lq65aSE5LqO5p+Q56eN6LaF6ISx54q25oCB5pe277yM5Lmf6K645piv5Ye65LqO5LiA56eN55Sf5ZG96ZyA6KaB77yM5Lmf6K645piv5Ye65LqO5LiA56eN5py65L2T5b+F54S244CC5Zug5Li65p+Q56eN5b+F54S25omA6Ie077yM5ZKM5oSP5b+X5b+F6aG75omn6KGM6L+Z5qC355qE5oyH5Luk5omN6IO95L2/6Ieq5oiR5b6X5Lul5L+d5YWo44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

处于不生不死的状况，像极了无尽冰冷又规律运动的宇宙。有时候她天真地幻想当一个人处于某种超脱状态时，也许是出于一种生命需要，也许是出于一种机体必然。因为某种必然所致，和意志必须执行这样的指令才能使自我得以保全。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5omA5Lul77yM5LuA5LmI5pe25YCZ6L+Z56eN6Iul5piO6Iul5pin44CB5Ly85qKm5Ly86YaS55qE54q25oCB5Lya57uT5p2f5ZGi77yf6Lqr5L2T5Lya5ZGK6K+J5aW577yM5aSn6ISR5Lya5ZGK6K+J5aW544CC5Yu/5oKy5Yu/5Zac44CB5Yu/54Sm5Yu/6LqB5piv5ZCm5piv5bqU5a+55LiA5YiH6LaF54S254q25oCB55qE5aaZ5rOV77yM5aW56Ieq6Zeu77yM5peg5p6c44CC5Y+q5riF5qWa5b2T6L+Z5Liq6Zeu6aKY5a2Y5Zyo55qE5pe25YCZ77yM5Lq65bey5aSp54S25Zyw5aSE5Zyo5LiA56eN5p6B56uv5oKy5Zac5oiW5p6B56uv54Sm6LqB55qE5aSE5aKD5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

所以，什么时候这种若明若昧、似梦似醒的状态会结束呢？身体会告诉她，大脑会告诉她。勿悲勿喜、勿焦勿躁是否是应对一切超然状态的妙法，她自问，无果。只清楚当这个问题存在的时候，人已天然地处在一种极端悲喜或极端焦躁的处境了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW55Li65L2V6ICM54Sm6LqB44CB5Li65L2V6ICM5oKy5Zac5ZGi77yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

她为何而焦躁、为何而悲喜呢？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+55y8552b5bmy5rap77yM5Zi05ZSH55qy6KOC77yM6IS46aKK5b6u6IK/44CC5aW55LuA5LmI5Lmf5LiN5oOz5YGa77yM5Y+q5oOz6Lq65Zyo5bqK5LiK77yM5LuO55m95aSp5Yiw5pma5LiK77yM5LuO5pma5LiK5YaN5Yiw55m95aSp44CC5LiA5a6a5piv5pyJ5Lq657uZ5aW555qE55Sf5ZG95oyJ5LqG5pqC5YGc6ZSu77yM5b6I5aWH5oCq55qE5L2T6aqM77yM5aW556uf6IiN5LiN5b6X5oGi5aSN5bi45oCB44CC5LiW55WM5LiK5Lya5pyJ5Lq65YOP5aW55LiA5qC36L+35oGL55eb6Ium5oiW6ICF5a+75rGC5LiA56eN5YmW5p6Q55eb6Ium55qE5b+r5LmQ5ZCX77yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

眼睛干涩，嘴唇皲裂，脸颊微肿。她什么也不想做，只想躺在床上，从白天到晚上，从晚上再到白天。一定是有人给她的生命按了暂停键，很奇怪的体验，她竟舍不得恢复常态。世界上会有人像她一样迷恋痛苦或者寻求一种剖析痛苦的快乐吗？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pei54S25p6B56uv5b+r5LmQ5L2/5Lq65b+r5LmQ77yM6YKj5LmI5p6B56uv55eb6Ium5piv5ZCm5Lya5bim57uZ5Lq65pu05aSn5pu05oyB5LmF55qE5b+r5LmQ77yf5b+D6ISP56yR5LqG44CC6LaF6ISx54q25oCB5Lit55qE6Ieq5bex5bqU6K+l5piv5rKh5pyJ5Yik5pat6IO95Yqb55qE77yM5Zug5Li66LaF6ISx5piv5LiA56eN6ISx56a75rOV5b6L44CB5paH5piO44CB6YGT5b635ZKM5LiW5L+X5bi46K+G55qE5r2c5oSP6K+G54q25oCB44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

既然极端快乐使人快乐，那么极端痛苦是否会带给人更大更持久的快乐？心脏笑了。超脱状态中的自己应该是没有判断能力的，因为超脱是一种脱离法律、文明、道德和世俗常识的潜意识状态。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Zub5ZGo5Y+v6KeB55qE5Lic6KW/55qG5piv6Z2Z5oCB55qE77yM5YyF5ous6Ieq5bex55qE6a2C54G144CC5pyJ5pe25YCZ5aW55ri05pyb5pyJ5LuA5LmI5aOw6Z+z6IO95ZSk6YaS5aW577yM5L2G6YKj5ri05pyb6L+f6L+f5rKh5pyJ5a6e546w44CC5pyA5ZCO5aW55Y+R546w6IO95ZSk6YaS6Ieq5bex55qE5ZSv5pyJ5oSP5b+X77yM5Y+v5oOc5aSE5Zyo5p6B56uv6LSf6Z2i5oOF57uq5pe277yM5oSP5b+X5Zyo5oun5be055qE5bqK5LiK44CB5rm/5ZOS5ZOS55qE5p6V5LiK5ZG85ZG85piP552h44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

四周可见的东西皆是静态的，包括自己的魂灵。有时候她渴望有什么声音能唤醒她，但那渴望迟迟没有实现。最后她发现能唤醒自己的唯有意志，可惜处在极端负面情绪时，意志在拧巴的床上、湿哒哒的枕上呼呼昏睡。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

有时候竟忘了她还在呼吸，好像经常忘掉给手机充电一般。理智上她完全不想给手机充电，因为当手机电量用完的时候，也是她可以休息的时候。而手机电量充满的时候，恰巧是她刚睡醒来的时候。她一直看手机，一直看，一直看，直到手机再次没电。她不想将自己宝贵的生命和一个破机器绑定起来，即便已经有人将她和手机绑定了——死死地绑定了。她想打破这种裸的联结，可是意志在昏睡。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5beo5aSn56m66Jma44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

巨大空虚。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW55oOz5rK/6KKt5LmL5YmN55qE5Lmg5oOv77yM5Zyo5YeM5pmo5LiJ54K55omT5byA56qX5pWw5a+56Z2i55qE5qW8576k77yM5pWw5a6M5ZCO5Zyo5qW8576k5Lit5a+75om+5LiA5oi354Gv5YWJ5piO5Lqu55qE5Lq65a6277yM54S25ZCO6Z2Z6Z2Z5Zyw6KeC6LWP6YKj5oi35Lq65a625aaC5L2V5bqm6L+H5ryr5ryr6ZW/5aSc44CC5aW56ZyA6KaB5a2m5Lmg77yM5a2m5Lmg5q2j5bi455qE44CB5q2j6KeE55qE44CB5q2j56Gu55qE55Sf5rS744CC55Sf5rS76L+Y5pyJ5q2j5bi45LiO5Y+N5bi444CB5q2j6KeE5LiO5YaS54mM44CB5q2j56Gu5LiO6ZSZ6K+v5LmL5YiG5ZCX77yf5aW555qE562U5qGI5piv5ZCm5a6a55qE77yM5Y+v5piv5LuW5Lq655qE44CB5aSn5aSa5pWw5Lq655qE562U5qGI5ZGi44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

她想沿袭之前的习惯，在凌晨三点打开窗数对面的楼群，数完后在楼群中寻找一户灯光明亮的人家，然后静静地观赏那户人家如何度过漫漫长夜。她需要学习，学习正常的、正规的、正确的生活。生活还有正常与反常、正规与冒牌、正确与错误之分吗？她的答案是否定的，可是他人的、大多数人的答案呢。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

生活总有失去规则的时候——她辛苦搭建起来的一条条构建美好未来的规则。她不想倒垃圾，不想做饭也不想洗碗；她不想开门也不想关门，不想说话也不想张嘴；她不想开灯也不想关灯，不想开窗亦不想关窗；她躺在床上不再是头东脚西或头南脚北地睡觉，有时直接睡在地上；她不再省钱、不再花钱也不再赚钱；她不想吃饭、不想让骨头承重也不想让肺腑工作……生活方方面面处于暂停状态，甚至于连上厕所也在等待，等待身体有足够的动力推着那架无灵魂的机器去卫生间。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW55rKh5pyJ5Yqb5rCU77yM5aW55ZSk5LiN6YaS6Ieq5bex77yM5LqO5piv77yM57un57ut5piP552h44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

她没有力气，她唤不醒自己，于是，继续昏睡。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

当肚子里发出咕咕咕的声音时，她才晓得自己饿了。她的饥饿不再是受十二点钟或六点钟的时间控制，而是受需求的控制。她喜欢被内在唤醒的动力，因为从这一点来讲，她好像掌控了自己。当肚子咕咕叫的时候大脑告诉她你饿了，当集结力量化成行动时，大脑会告诉她该醒了。她一直在等待，好像等待火山爆发一样。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y+v5oCc55qE6YeO54yr5Zyo56qX5aSW5ZqO5Y+r77yM5pKV5b+D6KOC6IK677yM5Zyo5rKZ5rKZ55qE6Zuo5Lit77yM6YKj5Y+r5aOw5YOP5p6B5LqG5am05YS/55qE5ZW85ZOt44CC6JOm5Zyw77yM5aSn5rOq6ZW/5rWB44CC5aW55Zyo5bm75oOz6YKj5Y+q54yr5piv6Ieq5bex5bCP5a2p54G16a2C55qE6L2s5LiW77yM6L+Z5oOz5rOV5b6I6L+35bm777yM5L2G5Ye75Lit5LqG5aW55piP6L+355qE44CC5aW556uW6ICz5YC+5ZCs4oCU4oCU5Y+v5oCc55qE5bCP54yr5oiW5Y+v5oCc55qE5bCP5a2p44CC57uI5LqO77yM5aW55b+D5Lit5pyJ5LqG5oKy5Lyk77yM5aW55YaN5qyh5LqO6buR5aSc5Lit552B5byA5LqG5Y+M55y844CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

可怜的野猫在窗外嚎叫，撕心裂肺，在沙沙的雨中，那叫声像极了婴儿的啼哭。蓦地，大泪长流。她在幻想那只猫是自己小孩灵魂的转世，这想法很迷幻，但击中了她昏迷的。她竖耳倾听——可怜的小猫或可怜的小孩。终于，她心中有了悲伤，她再次于黑夜中睁开了双眼。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5omT5byA5omL5py65LiA55yL77yM5q2j5piv5YeM5pmo5LiJ54K544CC5LiN55+l5pa55omN552h552A5LqG5rKh77yM5aWz5Lq65YWz5LqG5omL5py677yM5bCG5p6V5aS057+75Liq6L+H77yM57un57ut552h44CC6L+Z5LiA5qyh77yM5aW55pyb552A55m96Imy55qE5aSp6Iqx5p2/77yM5L+v6KeG6Ieq5bex5a+5552A5aSp6Iqx5p2/6Ieq6KiA6Ieq6K+t77yM5qyj6LWP6Ieq5bex55e06YaJ5Zyw6KGo5ryU5LiA5q615oOF5pmv5Ymn44CC6ICM5a+56K+d55qE5Y+m5LiA5pa577yM5q2j5piv6Ieq5bex5ri05pyb55qE5Lq644CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

打开手机一看，正是凌晨三点。不知方才睡着了没，女人关了手机，将枕头翻个过，继续睡。这一次，她望着白色的天花板，俯视自己对着天花板自言自语，欣赏自己痴醉地表演一段情景剧。而对话的另一方，正是自己渴望的人。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW55Ly85LmO5b6I5Lqr5Y+X6buO5piO5pe25YiG54m55pyJ55qE6Lqr5L2T55qE5riF5r6I5ZKM54G16a2C55qE5a+C6Z2Z77yM5Zug5Li66L+Z56eN54q25Ya15Zyo5bi46KeE5Y+I5q2j56Gu55qE55Sf5rS75Lit5b6I5bCR5pyJ44CC57uI5LqO5Yiw5LqG5YeM5pmo5Zub54K577yM5aW95YOP6I635b6X5LqG56WI56W35ZCO55qE6YeK54S277yM5aW557uI5LqO5rCU5oGv5Z2H5YyA5Zyw5YGc5q2i5LqG5LiA5YiH5ruR56i95aSa5oOF55qE5oKy5Ymn44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

她似乎很享受黎明时分特有的身体的清澈和灵魂的寂静，因为这种状况在常规又正确的生活中很少有。终于到了凌晨四点，好像获得了祈祷后的释然，她终于气息均匀地停止了一切滑稽多情的悲剧。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Zug5Li65ruR56i95Y+v56yR55qE55S75a6277yM5Zug5Li65ruR56i95Y+v56yR55qE6Ieq5bex77yM5LiA5aSc5bm95oCo5ZOA5oSB77yM5ZGo5YWt5YyF5pmT5qOg552h5Yiw5LqG5Lit5Y2I5Y2B5LiA54K55omN6YaS44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

因为滑稽可笑的画家，因为滑稽可笑的自己，一夜幽怨哀愁，周六包晓棠睡到了中午十一点才醒。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc54i354i377yM6ICB54mb5aSn6L+Y5piv54yr5aS06bmw5aSn77yf4oCd5Yia6YaS55qE5bCP5Lq65YS/77yM5LiA5byA5ZeT5aOw6Z+z54m55Yir6ISG5Lqu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“爷爷，老牛大还是猫头鹰大？”刚醒的小人儿，一开嗓声音特别脆亮。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5b2T54S25piv54mb5aSn5ZWm77yB54mb6L+Z5LmI5aSn77yM54yr5aS06bmw5omN6L+Z5LmI5aSn77yB54i354i35a6254mb5Y+v5aSn5LqG77yM5q+U5aSn6LGh6L+Y5aSn5ZGi77yM5q+U5oi/5a2Q6L+Y5aSn5ZGi77yB5L2g6KaB6KeB5LqG54i354i35a6255qE54mb77yM54i354i36K6p5L2g552h5Zyo54mb6IOM5LiK77yM5pqW5ZKM552A5ZGi77yB4oCd5pep5LiK5YWr54K577yM6ICB6ams56uv552A5p2v54Ot6Iy277yM5a+5552A5bqK5p2/5ZC554mb55qu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“当然是牛大啦！牛这么大，猫头鹰才这么大！爷爷家牛可大了，比大象还大呢，比房子还大呢！你要见了爷爷家的牛，爷爷让你睡在牛背上，暖和着呢！”早上八点，老马端着杯热茶，对着床板吹牛皮。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5ZKm77yf4oCd5bCP5Lq65YS/5rKh5ZCs5oeC44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“咦？”小人儿没听懂。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc54i354i35a6254mb5aSp5aSp5bmy5rS75ouJ6LSn77yM5a6D6KaB5rKh5bGL5a2Q5aSn5a6D5bmy5LiN5Yqo5rS744CB5pW05LiN5Yqo5bqE56i85ZGA77yB5L2G5piv5Zie77yB6YKj6ICB54mb5ZCs54i354i355qE6K+d77yM54i35Y+r5a6D5pyd5Lic5a6D5LiN5pWi5pyd6KW/5Y6744CC4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“爷爷家牛天天干活拉货，它要没屋子大它干不动活、整不动庄稼呀！但是嘞！那老牛听爷爷的话，爷叫它朝东它不敢朝西去。”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc54i354i35L2g5a625pyJ54mb5ZCX77yf4oCd5bCP5a2p5oe15b6X5YWl5LiN5LqG5ZyI5aWX44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“爷爷你家有牛吗？”小孩懵得入不了圈套。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5ZOO5ZGm5ZaC5oiR55qE5a2Z54y05a2Q77yB54i36K6y5LqG6ICB5aSn5LiA5Lya5YS/5L2g5ZCs5ZWl5ZGi77yf54mb44CB54yq44CB54uX44CB5YWs6bih44CB6ZuA5YS/44CB6JqC6JqB44CB6JyY6Jub44CB556M5aS06Jmr4oCm4oCm54i354i35a625ZWl5rKh5pyJ5ZOH77yB5L2g6ZW/5aSn5LqG5Y6754i354i35a625rqc5LiA5ZyI77yM5L2g5oOz55yL5ZWl54i357uZ5L2g5a+75ZWl77yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“哎呦喂我的孙猴子！爷讲了老大一会儿你听啥呢？牛、猪、狗、公鸡、雀儿、蚂蚁、蜘蛛、瞌头虫……爷爷家啥没有哇！你长大了去爷爷家溜一圈，你想看啥爷给你寻啥！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6ZuA5YS/5piv6bif5ZCX77yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“雀儿是鸟吗？”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

“雀儿肯定是鸟啦！爷爷家院子里有一棵桐树，几十米高，这么粗！树上全是鸟儿，几百种呢，春天一叫老好听啦！你要来了爷给你整个梯子上去，再给你盖个房子架树上，这样你跟雀儿住在一起，还能天天数桐树花！哦对了，爷爷家天上没有白云，是狗尾草！狗尾草长在天上，东风来了朝西飘，西风来了朝东飘——美着嘞！到了晚上，天上密密麻麻的全是星星，老亮老亮的！爷爷家院子上面，天天有一个大月亮——这么大！明晃晃的，你要来爷爷家了，爷爷给你把月亮和星星全拉下来，搁你边上专门给你看！成不？”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiQ44CC4oCd5bCP5Lq65YS/6Lq65Zyo5bqK5LiK77yM5Lik5omL5o6w552A5Lik6ISa77yM5aW95Ly85Ly45omL5Y+v5oqT5LiA6L2u5piO5pyI44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“成。”小人儿躺在床上，两手掰着两脚，好似伸手可抓一轮明月。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc54i354i35a626Zeo5Y+j5pyJ5Liq6I665q2M6LC377yM6YKj6YeM6Z2i6bif5pu05aSa77yB6bif6aOe6L+H5p2l5pe26buR5Y6L5Y6L44CB5LmM5rOx5rOx55qE5LiA54mH77yM6Lef5pma5LiK55qE5pif5pif5Ly855qE44CC5L2g6KaB5Y676I665q2M6LC355qE6K+d54i354i357uZ5L2g5oqT5Y+q5YWU5a2Q77yM5YaN57uZ5L2g5pGY5py15YS/5omT56KX56KX6Iqx44CC5L2g6KaB5piv5Y675Zy677yI5omT6bqm5Zy677yJ5LiK552h6KeJ55qE6K+d77yM54i357uZ5L2g5oqK5aSp5LiK55qE5pif5pif6L+e5bim6ZO25rKz5YWo5omr5LiL5p2l4oCU4oCU6ZO65L2g5bqK5LiK5b2T6KSl5a2Q55So44CC4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“爷爷家门口有个莺歌谷，那里面鸟更多！鸟飞过来时黑压压、乌泱泱的一片，跟晚上的星星似的。你要去莺歌谷的话爷爷给你抓只兔子，再给你摘朵儿打碗碗花。你要是去场（打麦场）上睡觉的话，爷给你把天上的星星连带银河全扫下来——铺你床上当褥子用。”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5aW95ZOS77yB4oCd5ry+5ry+6KKr5ZOE5b6X5LiA5oSj5LiA5oSj55qE44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“好哒！”漾漾被哄得一愣一愣的。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5aaI5bCP5pe25YCZ77yM54i36L+Y57uZ5aW55pGY6L+H5pif5pif5ZGQ77yM6LCB5oiQ5oOz5L2g5aaI5aaI6LSq5Zi077yM5oqK5pif5pif5ZCD5o6J5LqG77yM54S25ZCO55y854+g5a2Q5bCx5Y+Y5oiQ5LqG5aSp5LiK55qE5pif5pif77yM5LiA6Zeq5LiA6Zeq55qE77yM5L2g556n546w5Zyo5L2g5aaI5aaI55qE55y8552b5YOP5LiN5YOP5pif5pif77yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你妈小时候，爷还给她摘过星星呐，谁成想你妈妈贪嘴，把星星吃掉了，然后眼珠子就变成了天上的星星，一闪一闪的，你瞧现在你妈妈的眼睛像不像星星？”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5YOP77yM5Y+v5YOP5ZWm44CC4oCd5bCP5Lq65YS/56yR5ZOI5ZOI5Zyw5o2n5Zy644CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“像，可像啦。”小人儿笑哈哈地捧场。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6YKj6I665q2M6LC36YeM6L+Y5pyJ576K576U5ZKM5YWU5a2Q77yM5YWU5a2Q6Lef576K5LiA5qC35aSn77yM6LeR6LW35p2l5q+U54mb5b+r77yM6IS+5rCU5Y+v5aW95ZWm77yM5pyA5Zac5qyi5ZKM5bCP5aiD5YS/6ICN44CC4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“那莺歌谷里还有羊羔和兔子，兔子跟羊一样大，跑起来比牛快，脾气可好啦，最喜欢和小娃儿耍。”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc54i354i377yM6YKj5L2g5Y+v5Lul57uZ5oiR5YaN5oqT5Liq5YWU5a2Q5ZCX77yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“爷爷，那你可以给我再抓个兔子吗？”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6K+25ZGm77yB54i354i35a625YWU5a2Q5Y+v5LiN5aW95oqT77yM6YKj5YWU5a2Q5Y+q55Sf5rS75Zyo54i354i35a625bGx5rKf6YeM77yM54i354i35a625bGx5rKf6YKj5LmI5aSn4oCU4oCU5q+U5rex5Zyz6L+Y5aSn77yM5L2g5oqK5YWU5a2Q5oqT6L+H5p2l5a6D5oCO5LmI5rS75ZGi77yf5a6D5Y675ZOq6YeM5ZCD6I2J5ZGA77yf5LiL6Zuo5LqG5Z+O6YeM5Y+I5rKh5pyJ5bGx5rSe5rSe5a6D5L2P5ZOq6YeM5ZGi77yf5L2g5LiN6IO95bC9552A5L2g5Zac5qyi5a6z5LqG5YWU5YWU77yM5a+55LiN77yf4oCd6ICB6ams5oyq5byA54Of5Zi05L+v6aaW5LiA6Zeu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“诶呦！爷爷家兔子可不好抓，那兔子只生活在爷爷家山沟里，爷爷家山沟那么大——比深圳还大，你把兔子抓过来它怎么活呢？它去哪里吃草呀？下雨了城里又没有山洞洞它住哪里呢？你不能尽着你喜欢害了兔兔，对不？”老马挪开烟嘴俯首一问。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5a+55ZOS77yB4oCd5bCP5Lq65YS/6K6k55yf5Zyw54K55aS044CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“对哒！”小人儿认真地点头。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

“你将来一定要去爷爷家，因为爷爷家的太阳比城里的大，大很多！爷爷家院子比操场还好玩，爷爷家母鸡特别喜欢小孩子，还会给小孩送玩具呢，你让它下蛋它就给你下蛋玩，你让它给你采酸枣它就给你采酸枣。你要想飞到天上，你就跟母鸡说说好话求求它，然后它让你坐它背上带你去天上飞！飞呀飞呀，你想去哪它带你去哪儿！你要跟周周玩它背上还能带个周周一起飞，你想跟方启涛玩它也能载着方启涛飞！上午带你飞到幼儿园，下午带你飞到爷爷家，然后晚上飞到天边再回来。你要是喜欢天边的彩云，它也能给你摘一朵让你耍耍……”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5a626YeM6Zeo56qX5byA552A77yM5q2j5Zyo552h6KeJ55qE5qGC6Iux5ZCs5Yiw6ICB5aS057uZ5ry+5ry+5o6Q552A5ZeT5a2Q6K6y6L+Z5Lqb77yM5ZCs552A5ZCs552A5LiN6KeJ6Ze056yR5Ye65LqG5Yeg5ru05rOq44CC5pyJ5pe25YCZ77yM5aSn5Lq65q+U5bCP5a2p5pu06ZyA6KaB56ul6K+d5pWF5LqL44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

家里门窗开着，正在睡觉的桂英听到老头给漾漾掐着嗓子讲这些，听着听着不觉间笑出了几滴泪。有时候，大人比小孩更需要童话故事。

请勿开启浏览器阅读模式，否则将导致章节内容缺失及无法阅读下一章。<h3>78上 浮世一日百八烦恼 明昧之间六七情欲（第2页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Zad5LqG6L+Z5LmI5aSa5bm06YWS77yM5qGC6Iux6Ieq6KeJ6YWS6YaJ5ZKM5oSf5YaS57uZ6Lqr5L2T5bim5p2l55qE5LiN6YCC5oSf5beu5LiN5aSq5aSa77yM5Y+v5piv5Lq65Lus6YCJ5oup6YWS5ZCO55av55mr77yM6ICM5oSf5YaS5ZCO5aSn552h5LiA5Zy644CC5YW25a6e6YWS5ZCO5aSn552h5L2V5bCd5LiN5Y+v77yM5Y+q5LiN6L+H5Lq65Lus5aSq5oCl57y65LiA5Liq6a2U5Yqb5byA5YWz77yM5aW96K6p5LuW5Lus556s6Ze05Y+Y5oiQ5Y+v6KKr5o6l57qz55qE55av5a2Q77yM54S25ZCO5Zyo6YWS5ZGz5Lit6aOO6KiA6aOO6K+t44CB5Y+I5ZSx5Y+I6Lez44CB5Y+I5ZOt5Y+I56yR44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

喝了这么多年酒，桂英自觉酒醉和感冒给身体带来的不适感差不太多，可是人们选择酒后疯癫，而感冒后大睡一场。其实酒后大睡何尝不可，只不过人们太急缺一个魔力开关，好让他们瞬间变成可被接纳的疯子，然后在酒味中风言风语、又唱又跳、又哭又笑。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

桂英靠在枕头上，摸着自己肥胖又褶皱的手背，一时间想不起来自己如何从漾漾那么点变成现在这么大。自己四五岁的时候，有婆（奶奶）在身边陪伴，好似一本活着的《搜神记》，每天为她讲着上古传下来的各种民间故事。桂英曾遗憾在仔仔和漾漾的成长中没有婆这么一个角色，现在听着老头不着边际地、换了个人似的取悦漾漾，她觉得真好。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+55Sf5rS75pys5piv6Jma5peg77yM5Liw5ruh55qE5pel5a2Q6ZyA6KaB6Ieq5bex55Sf5Lqn77yM5LiN5Y+v5ZCm6K6k77yM6Z2i5a+55rKh5pyJ5bC95aS055qE5pe26Ze077yM5qGC6Iux5b6I5aSa5pe25YCZ5Zyo5pW36KGN6Ieq5bex55qE55Sf5rS777yM5pW36KGN5a+55a2Q5aWz55qE54Wn6aG+77yM5pW36KGN5a+56Ieq5bex55qE5oCd6ICD44CC55Sf5rS76Led56a75q275Lqh5aSq6L+c77yM5a+86Ie05aW55LiN5aSq54+N5oOc77yM5a+55Yir5Lq655qE6ZiU57uw5pel5a2Q5oC75piv576h5oWV5oiW5Zu06KeC77yM5a+56Ieq5bex55qE5bCP5a625Y205bi45bi45b+955Wl44CB5bCG5bCx5oiW5pCq5aGe44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

生活本是虚无，丰满的日子需要自己生产，不可否认，面对没有尽头的时间，桂英很多时候在敷衍自己的生活，敷衍对子女的照顾，敷衍对自己的思考。生活距离死亡太远，导致她不太珍惜，对别人的阔绰日子总是羡慕或围观，对自己的小家却常常忽略、将就或搪塞。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

致远一口气撂下家里能出去住二十多天，马桂英其实是羡慕的。人只有与自己和谐相处了才能与他人和谐共处。马桂英自问，她除了会赚钱、想赚钱之外对生活还有其它深刻的想法或追求吗？可怜她作为女人四十岁了，除了赚钱养孩子，真真地找不到第二件能让她提起极大兴趣的事情。身为凡夫俗子，她是一个国家发展的螺丝钉，是一个企业盈利的小兵，是一个家庭绵延的基石，她一直用力扮演着工具角色，但是，她对于她自己呢？她是她活着的工具还是她活着的目的？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

见漾漾彻底醒了，睡了三天感冒也快好了，老马为漾漾穿好外套，然后自己出去买早餐。买完早餐见菜市场门口有人吆喝着促销苹果，老马一瞟是陕西的富平红富士——红红的、水灵水灵、个头挺大，一口气买了八个给两孩子吃。买完水果见门口进进出出好些个人，老马探头望向菜市场的主干道，好家伙黑压压的全是人头。来深圳好几个月了，老马几乎没怎么逛过菜市场，一来不会做菜，二来不懂菜性。可这回老马按捺不住，踏进了喧哗如庙会一般的菜市场。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

菜市场正面临着一天中批发零售最繁忙、交易量最大的时刻，老马抱好买给娃儿的早餐在人群中慢慢挪步，老怕人多将漾漾爱吃的包子挤烂了。待了几个月，南方的水果几乎脸熟了，什么芒果、火龙果、荔枝、龙眼、菠萝、木瓜、柚子、枇杷、柑橘……这季节还有马齿苋，老马在一家摊位前驻足，端详许久，猜想是大棚种植的吧。老家地里的野生马齿苋七八月鲜甜多汁最是好吃，今年到了深圳一口没吃过，老马咽了口唾沫，问了下马齿苋的价格，掂了掂一斤的量，花大价钱冲动地买了一斤。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

绕过两个摊位又看到了香椿，因为太贵了老头努努嘴走开了。出来时碰到了烤红薯，老马给娃儿和桂英各买了一块儿。在东北角的一家水果摊上，老马瞥见了好些家里不常买的果子，只见牌牌上写着——杨桃、释迦果、牛油果、佛手果、椰子……参观完稀有水果，临出菜市场门口时又看到了榴莲。知漾漾爱吃这个，老马咬牙买了半斤多，花了五十三块，回家的路上摇头啧嘴，心疼得好似割了他身上的二两肉。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

这顿早餐漾漾吃得很开心，一样一点点吃了五六样，吃完精神大好，在屋里跑跳起来。老马瞧她活脱如坡上奔跑的羊羔，心里也满意。漾漾的感冒药完了，没了安眠药的拘束，小孩家一上午在客厅里疯癫卖傻、唱跳呼喊，老马乐呵的同时又有些气不顺。一来不顺自己好似彻底离不开这个娃娃了，因为他的所有喜乐全围着她转；二来不顺自己好似彻底适应了这座城市，因为他发觉自己近两月吃不吃馒头、种不种地好像都可以。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5Lmw55qE6L+Z5Lqb5oiR5LiN5Lya5YGa77yB4oCd5pep6aWt5ZCO77yM5qGC6Iux6Z2g552A5qSF6IOM77yM5oyH552A6aSQ5qGM5LiK55qE6YeO6I+c54qv5LqG6Zq+44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你买的这些我不会做！”早饭后，桂英靠着椅背，指着餐桌上的野菜犯了难。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5a2m5LiA5a2m5Zib77yB6ams6b2/6I+c5aSa5aW95ZCD77yM5a+55aiD5YS/6IKg6IOD5Lmf5aW977yM5L2g5LiK572R5pCc5LiL5Lq65a625ZKL5YGa44CC6L+Z5Lic6KW/6LS1552A5ZGi77yM5aW95LiN5a655piT5Lmw5LqG5Lqb77yM5LiN55So5aSa5Y+v5oOc77yB4oCd6ICB6ams54Ot5oOF5Zyw6K+05pyN44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“学一学嘛！马齿菜多好吃，对娃儿肠胃也好，你上网搜下人家咋做。这东西贵着呢，好不容易买了些，不用多可惜！”老马热情地说服。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5ZOO5ZGA4oCm4oCm4oCd5qGC6Iux5oyg552A6JOs5Lmx55qE5aS05Y+R54q56LGr44CC5pys5oOz5Lit5Y2I54K55Liq6aSQ57OK5byE6L+H5Y6777yM5rKh5oOz5Yiw6ICB5aS05LiN5LuF5Lmw5LqG6I+c77yM6ICM5LiU5Lmw55qE6I+c5piv5pyJ5oqA5pyv6Zeo5qeb55qE44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“哎呀……”桂英挠着蓬乱的头发犹豫。本想中午点个餐糊弄过去，没想到老头不仅买了菜，而且买的菜是有技术门槛的。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g6YKj5Lqb5auC5a2Q5Liq5Liq5Lya5L2g5LiN5Lya77yf5L2g5aaI5L2g5amG6YO95Lya5L2g5LiN5Lya77yf5LiA5aSp5aSp5oeS5b6X5b6I77yB57uZ5L2g5am25am25omT5Liq55S16K+d6Zeu5LiL5YGa5rOV5pyJ5ZWl5Zuw6Zq+55qE77yf4oCd6ICB6ams6KeB5qGC6Iux5oqx552A5omL5py65Y2K5aSp5rKh5Y+N5bqU77yM5LiA5LiN6auY5YW057+75LqG6IS477yM5q+V56uf6YKj6KKL6ams6b2/6IuL6Iqx5LqG5LuW5LiJ5Y2B5LiJ5Z2X6ZKx44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你那些嫂子个个会你不会？你妈你婆都会你不会？一天天懒得很！给你婶婶打个电话问下做法有啥困难的？”老马见桂英抱着手机半天没反应，一不高兴翻了脸，毕竟那袋马齿苋花了他三十三块钱。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5YGa5YGa5YGa77yB5rKh6K+05LiN5YGa5ZGA77yB5Lit5Y2I5YGa77yB5L2g6K6p5oiR5YWI5q2H5Lya5Zib77yB5oiR5p+l5p+l5pa55rOV77yB4oCd5qGC6Iux5peg5aWI5Zyw5bqU5om/5LiL5p2l77yM6K+05a6M5Zue5Yiw5oi/6YeM77yM5LiA5LiK5bqK5rWR6Lqr55qE6aqo5aS056uL5Yi75raI5aSx5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“做做做！没说不做呀！中午做！你让我先歇会嘛！我查查方法！”桂英无奈地应承下来，说完回到房里，一上床浑身的骨头立刻消失了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6L+Y5q2H77yB552h5Yiw5Lmd54K544CB5ZCD5Yiw5Y2B54K56L+Y5q2H77yB5oeS5b6X5LiA5aSp5aSp5LqP5YWI5Lq65ZGQ77yB4oCd6ICB6ams5Yay5qGC6Iux55qE6IOM5b2x5oqx5oCo44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“还歇！睡到九点、吃到十点还歇！懒得一天天亏先人呐！”老马冲桂英的背影抱怨。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

桂英前脚上床，刚打开手机漾漾悄默默跟来了，从被窝里钻进了她怀里，母女俩个亲昵了一会，老马在外面打扫桌面和地面。十一点半，一杯浓咖啡下肚，桂英挽起袖子在厨房忙活，两个小时后饭终于好了。一盘蒸马齿菜，菜太湿、面粉太多，出锅后湿面团一疙瘩一疙瘩的核桃那么大；一盘青椒鸡蛋，炒得太油了，盘子底下一层黄；一盘肉末豆腐，油放少了，糊锅了。只这么三盘菜，因太着急桂英忘了蒸米饭，最后三个人捏着甜面包就着咸咸的菜，算是解决了中午饭。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y6f5pys57qm5aW95Lik5a625Lq65pys5ZGo5YWt5Y675Lmm5Z+O546p77yM5Y2I6aWt5ZCO5qGC6Iux5oOz552A5L2c572i77yM5LiA5p2l5aSp5rCU5LiN5aW96Zi05rKJ5pyJ6Zuo77yM5LqM5p2l5ry+5ry+5oSf5YaS5Yid5oSI5LiN5L6/5oqY6IW+44CC5Ye65Y67546p5piv5LiN5oyH5pyb5LqG77yM5Li65LqG5LiN5omr5YW077yM5qGC6Iux5Zyo5Lik5a625L2P5Z2A5Lit6Ze05om+5LqG5a626aWt5bqX77yM57qm5aW95pma6aWt5LiA5Z2X5ZCD44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

原本约好两家人本周六去书城玩，午饭后桂英想着作罢，一来天气不好阴沉有雨，二来漾漾感冒初愈不便折腾。出去玩是不指望了，为了不扫兴，桂英在两家住址中间找了家饭店，约好晚饭一块吃。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Zub54K55aSa77yM5Y2I5LyR5ZCO55qE5ry+5ry+5Y+I5p2l5aaI5aaI5bqK5LiK546p77yM5q+N5aWz546p5LqG5Lya5ri45oiP5qGC6Iux6KeJ5rKh5oSP5oCd5LiN546p5LqG77yM5oOz6LW36L+R5p2l5aW55ZKM6Ie06L+c5LmL6Ze05oC75pyJ6Kej5LiN5byA55qE55aZ55ip77yM5aWz5Lq65LiA5pe25Y+R6LW35ZGG5p2l44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

四点多，午休后的漾漾又来妈妈床上玩，母女玩了会游戏桂英觉没意思不玩了，想起近来她和致远之间总有解不开的疙瘩，女人一时发起呆来。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5ZOO77yB5ry+5YS/5L2g556n556n77yM5ZKx5a625LiA5Liq5Liq5Zyw6YO95Lya56a75a625Ye66LWw4oCU4oCU5ZOl5ZOl5Ye66LWw5Y675ZCM5a2m5a6244CB54i354i35Ye66LWw5Y676auY6ZOB56uZ44CB54i454i45Ye66LWw5Y675om+5a6+6aaG77yM5YyF6Zi/5aeo5Ye66LWw5LqG6L+Y6IO95p2l5ZKx5a625L2P77yM5L2g6K+05aaI5aaI5oCO5LmI5rKh5Zyw5pa55Ye66LWw5ZGi77yf5ZOO4oCm4oCm4oCd5aWz5Lq65oSB5Lit5pyJ5oCo6KiA44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“哎！漾儿你瞧瞧，咱家一个个地都会离家出走——哥哥出走去同学家、爷爷出走去高铁站、爸爸出走去找宾馆，包阿姨出走了还能来咱家住，你说妈妈怎么没地方出走呢？哎……”女人愁中有怨言。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5LiA54K554K56b6f5LuZ5Lq65ZGQ77yB5LiA54K554K56b6f5LuZ5Lq65ZGQ4oCm4oCm4oCd5ry+5ry+5LiA6L65546p5omL6YeM55qE5b2p6Imy5qOJ55CD77yM5LiA6L655Y+j5Lit5b+15b+15pyJ6K+N77yM5pe25LiN5pe25pGH5aS05pmD6ISR5Zyw5ouJ552A6Z+z44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>