66中 青年暧昧互诉心曲 中年交困岁月难度（2 / 2）

请勿开启浏览器阅读模式，否则将导致章节内容缺失及无法阅读下一章。<h3>66中 青年暧昧互诉心曲 中年交困岁月难度（第2页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

面对超负荷的工作她连日来硬撑着，面对工作上的种种矛盾她自己硬扛着，早脆弱到挺不动的马桂英多希望有人此时能安慰她、鼓励她，给她重新面对紊乱和失调的自信与力气。除了儿女，她找不到其他人了。老头永远按照他的逻辑行事，一辈子从不考虑别饶感受或意见。作为丈夫的何致远呢？他高心时候桂英的世界是畅通无阻的，他倘若冷漠决绝，那么她的世界将戛然停滞。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

四十岁的马桂英对生活索求非多。她只想在累到无力话的时候，他能抱一抱她，漾漾今的糗事、仔仔昨的怪事；她渴望月圆的时候他能牵着她的手在楼底下、马路上走一走、寻一寻明月的影子；她希望生活压力大到失眠的时候他能冲她几句宽慰话、赞美话、鼓励话……桂英撩起胸前湿透的衣服，擦了擦鼻子上的泪。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6Zq+6L+H55qE6ams5qGC6Iux5LuO5a626YeM5om+5p2l54Of77yM5Y676Ziz5Y+w6YKj5YS/5a+75Yiw6ICB5aS055qE5omT54Gr5py677yM5Z2Q5Zyo6ICB5aS055qE5pGH5qSF5LiK77yM6ISx5LiL54ut55qE6auY6Lef6Z6L77yM6Zyy5Ye65Yeg5aSE56Oo6IK/55qE5aSn6ISa77yM54K554eD6aaZ54Of5ZCO5LiA5Liq5Lq65pS+6IKG5Zyw5oq944CC5aS5552A6aaZ54Of55qE5bem5omL55So56uW552A55qE5ouH5oyH6L276L275bim6LWw5LqG6by75qKB5LiA5L6n55qE5rOq77yM54S25ZCO5aSn5Y+j5aSn5Y+j5Zyw57un57ut5oq944CC54Of5rCU5Y235Y236KKF6KKF77yM5Ly85aW55qKm5Lit6L2755uI55qE54G16a2C5LiA6Iis44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

难过的马桂英从家里找来烟，去阳台那儿寻到老头的打火机，坐在老头的摇椅上，脱下狭的高跟鞋，露出几处磨肿的大脚，点燃香烟后一个人放肆地抽。夹着香烟的左手用竖着的拇指轻轻带走了鼻梁一侧的泪，然后大口大口地继续抽。烟气卷卷袅袅，似她梦中轻盈的灵魂一般。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5a+56L+Z57Of57Og55qE5rKJ6YeN55qE5pel5a2Q77yM6LCB5LiN5oOz6YCD56a777yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

对这糟糠的沉重的日子，谁不想逃离？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

她也想去看看海——安静的大海，哪怕一次也校只身一人，躺在海边，一躺躺半。每每当她觉得生活没办法往前走时，她总想着去看海，总想着抽根烟，总想着找个安静的地方睡一觉……可是这些年来竟没有一次没有一项能达成。因此她懒得奢望，因为她知道实现不了。马桂英此生所图，无非两样——快乐和心安。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

这家里，不是只有他何致远一个人想家、孝顺、动不动往湖南跑，桂英也想思乡时走就走地回到她出生的地方。在宁静的山坡上待几，看看故乡一亩一亩的庄稼顽强地生长，看看故乡坡上的青草一片一片地蔓延，看看马家屯春独有的百里菜花金黄、千里麦浪滚滚……自从她离开家乡之后，再也没有回去过——真正地回去过。种种理由挡在面前，一日离家，再难归乡。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

离开故乡之后，她再也没见过活生生的洋槐花、黄绿微甜的榆钱叶、元宵过后的白毫芽……离开故乡之后，她再也没吃过她最爱的葫芦样儿的甜脆瓜、集市上做法独特的胡辣汤、儿时母亲哄她开心时专门为她做的滋卷儿……离开故乡之后，她再也没见过故乡的泡桐花儿、故乡的乌鸦、故乡的山沟沟，还有故乡的风声、鸟声、白雪、冰雹、狗尾草……还有故乡的二叔、三婶、兄弟姐妹和烈日下满身黝黑举着锄头的乡亲们……<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

能够治愈她耳朵的，也能够治愈她的心；可污染她耳朵的，也污染了她的心。牛脖铜铃一路沙哑，雨落铁盆哒哒作响，三月蜂鸟院里早忙，十月蛐蛐西墙还迎…马家屯——四方沟壑搭成龟背形的一个村庄，八方田野簇拥而起的一方黄土垣——马桂英曾经最最讨厌的地方，偏偏当她累得动不了时，离奇地念想那里。越靠近四十岁，她越爱幻想有一她能荣归故里。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

桂英曾经几欲疯狂地想要收集一把故乡的麦穗——四月底、五月初的麦穗子，带着家乡风尘的麦穗，饱含四季黄土脉动的麦穗，能给她带来心底安宁的麦穗……她打算亲自风干以后放在自己床头，用她财力所及的最好的花瓶盛放，放在床头最珍贵最安全的地方。可笑这么简单的事情，却永远实现不了，所以她永远不会提出来。时间久了，她成了一个不会为自己提要求的人，她的精力全耗在应付别饶要求上。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aW55biM5YaA55qE5b+r5LmQ5ZKM5a6J5a6B77yM5oq95oq954Of44CB5bm75oOz5bm75oOz77yM5b6X5LqG77yB566X5LqG77yB572i5LqG77yBPC9wPg=='));</script>

她希冀的快乐和安宁，抽抽烟、幻想幻想，得了！算了！罢了！<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5YWs5Y+46YeM5pyJ5Lq6566X6K6h5aW55pe277yM5aW55LiN5oOz6YCD56a75ZCX77yf6KKr6aKG5a+854K55ZCN5om56K+E5pe277yM5aW55LiN5oOz6YCD56a75ZCX77yf5Y6L5Yqb5aSn5Yiw5aW55Zyo5Yqe5YWs5a6k6YeM5LiA6L2s6Lqr5L6/5rWB5rOq5pe277yM5aW55LiN5oOz6YCD56a75ZCX77yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

公司里有人算计她时，她不想逃离吗？被领导点名批评时，她不想逃离吗？压力大到她在办公室里一转身便流泪时，她不想逃离吗？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6YCD56a744CB6YCD6YG/77yM5piv5pyA566A5Y2V55qE44CB5rC46L+c5o6S5Zyo56ys5LiA55qE6YCJ6aG577yM5Lq655Sf5LiN5bqU6K+l6YCJ5oup5pyA566A5Y2V55qE44CB5pyA6L275piT55qE77yM5Zug5Li65Lq655Sf5LuO5p2l5LiN566A5Y2V44CC5L2g6YCJ5oup5LuA5LmI5qC355qE5Lq655Sf77yM5Lq655Sf5L6/5Zue6aaI5L2g5LuA5LmI5qC355qE57uT5bGA44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

逃离、逃避，是最简单的、永远排在第一的选项，人生不应该选择最简单的、最轻易的，因为人生从来不简单。你选择什么样的人生，人生便回馈你什么样的结局。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5omT6YeP56qX5aSW55qE5aSc5pmv77yM5qGC6Iux5b+1552A56a75byA5aW555qE5L2V6Ie06L+c77yM5oCo5oGo44CB5b+D6YW444CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

打量窗外的夜景，桂英念着离开她的何致远，怨恨、心酸。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

最近她头疼得厉害、失眠也严重。桂英明显觉察到自己的身体不再有活力，精神也不那么自如轻松。她始终感到牙槽用力、双眉紧皱，偶尔会无缘由地夜里两三点醒来再也睡不着。她的头皮——从左耳到右耳、从头顶到脑后——总是这里那里一按就疼。她那从双眉到发际线的额头，跟她二哥一样光秃秃的额头，永远紧皱着或绷着。晚上睡觉，一有工作的消息她克制不住地猛然起来，结果睡意全无；近来早醒，时不时地感到心脏突突突地快速跳动。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiJ5Y2B5YWt5LiD5bKB55qE5pe25YCZ5bey57uP5a2m5Lya5LqG5oWi5oWi5LiL6Lmy44CB5oWi5oWi6LW36Lqr44CB5oWi5oWi6L2s6Lqr44CB5Zad6YaJ5LqG5oWi5oWi6LWw44CC6L+Z5piv5LiN5piv6ICB55qE5qCH6Ie05ZGi77yf6ams5qGC6Iux5LiN5pWi5o+j5rWL77yM5oiW6ICF5aW55LiN5pWi5oCd6ICD562U5qGI44CC5aW555qE6IKd6ISP5bey5pyJ6L275Lit5bqm55qE5Y+X5o2f77yM5aW555qE6Lqr5L2T5py66IO96Jma5byx5Yiw6LWw5Yeg5q2l6Lev5Lmf5ZaY77yM5aW55q+P6Z2g5ZKW5ZWh5oiW5rWT6Iy25pSv5pKR552A6Imw6Zq+57mB6YeN55qE5bel5L2c4oCm4oCmPC9wPg=='));</script>

三十六七岁的时候已经学会了慢慢下蹲、慢慢起身、慢慢转身、喝醉了慢慢走。这是不是老的标致呢？马桂英不敢揣测，或者她不敢思考答案。她的肝脏已有轻中度的受损，她的身体机能虚弱到走几步路也喘，她每靠咖啡或浓茶支撑着艰难繁重的工作……<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

胆的她常害怕自己会倒下去，那种再也起不来的倒下去，跟自己的母亲一样——累得猝死、酒后晕厥死去、路上出车祸一命呜呼……看起来彪悍如山的马桂英，心底里真这么胆，所以她每年给自己买昂贵的意外险，受益人那栏永远写着何致远。为了给这个家人人有一份保障，她不敢停脚地工作、工作、工作。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Lul5YmN77yM6ams5qGC6Iux5LiA6YGH5Yiw5bel5L2c5Ye66Zeu6aKY6JOm5Zyw5Lya5qyj5Zac77yM6K6k5Li65bGV546w6Ieq5bex55qE5py65Lya5p2l5LqG77yb5Y+v546w5Zyo77yM6ZSZ57u85aSN5p2C55qE55+b55u+5Lqk57uH5Zyo5LiA6LW377yM5aW55bqU5LuY5LiN5p2l44CC5Li65LqG562+5Y2V5oiQ5Yqf5aW55b+N5Y+X552A5YiB6ZK75a6i5oi35ZCE56eN5ZCE5qC355qE6Zq+5ZCs6K+d77yM6YWS5qGM5LiK5aW55LiN55+l6YGT5LqG5aSa5bCR6L+d5b+D5Y+I5oG25b+D55qE6K+d77yM5Li65LqG5YW75a625aW55LiN55+l6YGT6Ieq5bex5oqK6Ieq5bex6YC85oiQ5LqG5LuA5LmI5qC35a2Q4oCm4oCmPC9wPg=='));</script>

以前，马桂英一遇到工作出问题蓦地会欣喜，认为展现自己的机会来了；可现在，错综复杂的矛盾交织在一起，她应付不来。为了签单成功她忍受着刁钻客户各种各样的难听话，酒桌上她不知道了多少违心又恶心的话，为了养家她不知道自己把自己逼成了什么样子……<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+54Sm54G855qE6IGM5Zy677yM5L2g5Zyo5bel5L2c5Zyo77yM5Lq66LWw5bel5L2c5Y6744CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

焦灼的职场，你在工作在，人走工作去。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

好几次累到崩溃的时候，桂英萌生出一个滑稽的念头——想听秦腔戏，比如此时此刻。脑海中闪现的想法如此诡，流泪的女人被自己的念头逗笑了，因为她打根本不懂秦腔戏。可是，一旦那个旋律入耳，她然地感到一种放松，好似娘胎里带来的怪癖一样，好像秦腔对陕西人有某种治愈功能。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

人生不可求全，既然上给了她如茨能耐和志向、格局和路子，只管拼吧。既已认定，何须委屈。感情的问题挪一挪放一放，何致远想静一静，那就让他静一静吧。一切等到展会以后再谈，马桂英相信他俩将近二十年的夫妻感情，相信他俩心翼翼搭建起的这个家庭的稳固性，相信她不会点儿背到感情出问题、婚姻走不下去。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Yeg5qC554Of572i77yM5qGC6Iux5Y675o2i6Z6L77yM54S25ZCO5Zue5oi/552h6KeJ44CC5LuK5pma5aW55LiN6IO95YaN5ZOt5LqG77yM5Zug5Li65piO5LiA6LaF6YeP55qE5bel5L2c5LiN6ZyA6KaB5LiA5Y+M57qi6IK/55qE55y8552b5Y676Z2i5a+544CC5aW55LiN5Y+v5Lul5YaN5aSx55yg77yM5LiN5Y+v5Lul5YaN6ISG5byx77yM5LiN5Y+v5Lul5YaN5ZCR5ZG96L+Q5oqx5oCo44CB5aeU5bGI44CB6K6h6L6D44CB5ZOt6K+J4oCm4oCm5Z2a5by65LiO6Ieq5L+h5Ly86YGX5Lyg5p2l55qE5Z+65Zug5LiA5qC377yM5qGC6Iux6Lqr5LiK55qE6aG95by65LiO6ICB6ams5aaC5Ye65LiA6L6Z44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

几根烟罢，桂英去换鞋，然后回房睡觉。今晚她不能再哭了，因为明一超量的工作不需要一双红肿的眼睛去面对。她不可以再失眠，不可以再脆弱，不可以再向命运抱怨、委屈、计较、哭诉……坚强与自信似遗传来的基因一样，桂英身上的顽强与老马如出一辙。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

周一一早，老马一如既往地六点起床，然后在西北烟叶的独特熏香中欣赏灿烂的朝霞，撕掉昨日的老黄历，老头悠闲自得地去洗漱，在慈眉善目中他送走女儿和外孙。七点二十到了叫漾漾起床的点儿，按照老办法他端个盆子打些净水去姑娘屋里，冲睡得憨实的人，朝她八方飘摇的头发洒水，而后心翼翼地梳头、洗脸——每逢这个时候，公主会睁开她明媚的双眼。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6YaS5LqG77yf4oCd6ICB6ams552A5bCG5ry+5ry+5om25LqG6LW35p2l44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“醒了？”老马着将漾漾扶了起来。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5b6F5aW55Z2Q56iz5LqG77yM6ICB5aS05o6A5byA55uW55qE6JaE6KKr5YeG5aSH5ouJ5aW55LiL5bqK77yM5b+96KeB5bqK5Y2V5Lik5LiJ5Zui5bC/5riN77yM6Lqr5LiK55qE552h6KGj5ZKM55uW55qE6JaE6KKr5Lmf5pyJ5LiA5aSn54mH44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

待她坐稳了，老头掀开盖的薄被准备拉她下床，忽见床单两三团尿渍，身上的睡衣和盖的薄被也有一大片。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5aW95a625LyZ77yB5L2g5pio5pma5Zad5LqG5aSa5bCR5rC077yB5L2g5piv5Lic5rW36b6Z546L5a6255qE5Lq65ZCX77yf5bC/5oiQ6L+Z5qC377yB5oiR55qE6ICB54i35ZGA77yM5L2g5bC/55qE5q+U5oiR6L+Y5aSa77yB4oCd6ICB6ams6L+Z5LiA5ZC877yM5Lq65YS/5b275bqV6YaS5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“好家伙！你昨晚喝了多少水！你是东海龙王家的人吗？尿成这样！我的老爷呀，你尿的比我还多！”老马这一吼，人儿彻底醒了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

一摸，床单被子还是湿的，老头赶紧将薄被、床单拽了下来。往常给漾漾换衣服是致远在换，此刻老头才想起来今早一直没见到何致远，去房里找的时候才知他不在。老马心底纳闷，回想他早上没出门呀。家里只剩一老一，孩上学的时间又非常紧迫，老马没办法，只得自己指挥，让漾漾自个儿换衣。还好，四岁半的娃娃不辱重任，会脱也会穿。如此，老马加紧脚步收拾好以后，拉着孩子出门了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5L2V6Ie06L+c6Lip552A54K55Zue5LqG5a6277yM5pCs5Ye6566x5a2Q77yM5pS25ou+6Ieq5bex5Zyo5aSW5bGF5L2P55qE5Lic6KW/44CC5LuO5p2l5rKh5oOz6L+H56a75byA77yM5LuK5Y205LiN5b6X5LiN56a75byA44CC5Lit5bm05Lq66bq75Yip5Zyw5om+5Lic6KW/77yM6ZqP5oSP5Zyw5aGe6L+b566x5a2Q6YeM44CC5pio5pma5LiA5aSc57+75p2l6KaG5Y6777yM5Lul5Li65LuW6aG+5b+155qE5LiN5Lya5aSq5aSa77yM5LuK5pS25ou+5Lic6KW/5pe277yM6L+e5Liq5q+b5be+44CB6KKc5a2Q5LuW5o+h5Zyo5omL6YeM5b+D5Lmf5Zyo55eb44CC6Ieq5Lul5Li65LuW5YeA6Lqr54us5bGF6ZyA6KaB55qE5bm25LiN5aSa77yM5b6F5Yiw5q2k5Yi75pS25ou+5pe277yM5omN55+l6Imw6Zq+5ZKM5oKy5oia44CC5bim6LWw55qE6LaK5aSa77yM5piO55WZ5b+16LaK5aSa77yM6Ie06L+c5oOz5Yiw6L+Z6YeM77yM5bmy5YeA5Yip6JC95Zyw5ZCI5L2P566x5a2Q77yM6IiU5rOq5Ye66Zeo44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

何致远踩着点回了家，搬出箱子，收拾自己在外居住的东西。从来没想过离开，今却不得不离开。中年人麻利地找东西，随意地塞进箱子里。昨晚一夜翻来覆去，以为他顾念的不会太多，今收拾东西时，连个毛巾、袜子他握在手里心也在痛。自以为他净身独居需要的并不多，待到此刻收拾时，才知艰难和悲戚。带走的越多，明留念越多，致远想到这里，干净利落地合住箱子，舔泪出门。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6Zi/5aeo77yM5oiR6IO96L+b5Y675LiA5LiL5ZCX77yf55yL5Liq5ZCM5a2m77yM5aW555Sf55eF5LqG77yM5oiR57uZ5aW55bim5LqG6bih5rGk77yM5pyA5aSa5Y2K5pe25Ye65p2l77yB4oCd5LiK5Y2I5Lmd54K55Y2K77yM6K++6Ze05LyR5oGv55qE5b2T5YS/77yM6ZmI57uc5o+Q552A5LiA572Q6bih5rGk5p2l5Yiw5aWz55Sf5a6/6IiN5a6/566h6Zi/5aeo6L+Z6YeM44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“阿姨，我能进去一下吗？看个同学，她生病了，我给她带了鸡汤，最多半时出来！”上午九点半，课间休息的当儿，陈络提着一罐鸡汤来到女生宿舍宿管阿姨这里。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5a2m55Sf6K+B77yB4oCd5a6/566h6Zi/5aeo5o+h552A56yU5Ly45omL6KaB6K+B5Lu244CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“学生证！”宿管阿姨握着笔伸手要证件。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc57uZ77yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“给！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5aW95LqG5Y2K5Liq5pe277yM5LiN6IO95aSa77yB4oCd6IOW6IOW55qE5a6/566h6Zi/5aeo6KeB5LuW5bim552A54Ot5LmO5LmO55qE5rGk77yM5pS+5LuW6L+b5Y675LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“好了半个时，不能多！”胖胖的宿管阿姨见他带着热乎乎的汤，放他进去了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5o+Q552A6bih5rGk6ZmI57uc5aSn5q2l6LWw5Yiw6ZKf6Zuq5qKF5omA5Zyo55qE6YKj5qCL5aWz55Sf5a6/6IiN5qW877yM5LiK5LqG5qW85qKv5LiA5q2l6Leo5Lik5Y+w5Zyw6LW25Y676ZKf6Zuq5qKF5omA5Zyo55qE5a6/6IiN44CC5pWy6Zeo5Lul5ZCO77yM5LuW5Zyo6Zeo5aSW6KGo5piO6Lqr5Lu944CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

提着鸡汤陈络大步走到钟雪梅所在的那栋女生宿舍楼，上了楼梯一步跨两台地赶去钟雪梅所在的宿舍。敲门以后，他在门外表明身份。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6Zuq5qKF5LiA5ZCs5biI5YWE5p2l5LqG77yM5b+D6YeM5ZKv5ZmU5LiA5LiL77yM56m/552A552h6KGj44CB6JOs5aS05Z6i6Z2i55qE5aW5552A5a6e5LiN6YCC5ZCI6KeB5Lq644CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

雪梅一听师兄来了，心里咯噔一下，穿着睡衣、蓬头垢面的她着实不适合见人。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5biI5YWE77yM5L2g5pyJ5piv5LuA5LmI5LqL5oOF5ZCX77yf4oCd6Zuq5qKF5Zyo5a6/6IiN6YeM6Zeu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“师兄，你有是什么事情吗？”雪梅在宿舍里问。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR5ZCs5L2g5oSf5YaS5LqG77yM57uZ5L2g54K55LqG5Lu96bih5rGk77yM6L+Y5bim5LqG5Lik5qC35oSf5YaS6I2v44CC4oCd6ZqU552A5LiA5byg6Zeo55qE6ZmI57uc5Zyo5qW86YGT6YeM5Zue562U44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“我听你感冒了，给你点了份鸡汤，还带了两样感冒药。”隔着一张门的陈络在楼道里回答。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5ZGD4oCm4oCm6YKj5Liq4oCm4oCm5oiR4oCm4oCm5L2g56iN562J77yB4oCd55+l5biI5YWE5LiA54mH5aW95b+D77yM5YCY5bCG5Lq66LW26LWw5aSq6L+H5q6L5b+N77yM6Zuq5qKF6LW257Sn5LiL5bqK56m/6KGj44CB5qKz5rSX44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“呃……那个……我……你稍等！”知师兄一片好心，倘将人赶走太过残忍，雪梅赶紧下床穿衣、梳洗。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiD5YWr5YiG6ZKf5Lul5ZCO77yM6Zeo5byA5LqG77yM5Lik5Lq65oqT6ICz5oyg6IWu5Zyw6KeB5LqG6Z2i44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

七八分钟以后，门开了，两人抓耳挠腮地见了面。