59上 独酌买醉遥想当年 一夜长行虚实俯仰（2 / 2）

时候喜欢吃鱼，西北干旱，尝一口水中之物的鲜嫩，简直是可遇而不可求的事情。儿时的钟理为了吃鱼和伙伴跑了七八里路，谎称主事人家的亲戚大摇大摆地进了红白喜事的人堆里——后厨或席上，能得两三口鱼肉只觉人间美满。那最后的一口鱼肉，一定要嚼个二里路，待到化得不能再嚼了才咽下去。

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后来来了深圳，他隔三差五地吃鱼，因为他吃得起、他想吃。可是有一，当鱼肉成为权力的象征时，他忽地味觉尽失，再也尝不到儿时鱼肉的滋味了。他想过翻身，可因高学历而登上人生巅峰的路子，只可走一遍。这些年他常恨自己当年走得太顺，陷他于沼泽的，正是当年的顺利和傲慢。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5aaC5LuK5Y+N5oCd77yM5p2l5rex5Zyz55qE6L+Z5Y2K6L6I5a2Q77yM5aW95Lmf572i5Z2P5Lmf572i5pGG5pGG5omL5peg5omA6LCT5LqG44CC55y85LiL5ZCD6aWt44CB5Zad6YWS44CB552h6KeJ55qE5qih5byP5ZKM6L+H5Y675ZCD6aWt44CB5bel5L2c44CB552h6KeJ55qE5qih5byP77yM5Zyo5ryr5ryr5peg6L6555qE5pe25YWJ5LmL5Lit77yM5rKh5pyJ5YiG5Yir44CC6YeN5aSN55qE55Sf5rS75Luk5LuW5Lqn55Sf6ZSZ5Lmx77yM5LuW6K6w5LiN5L2P5pio5ZKM5YmN5pyJ5LuA5LmI5YiG5Yir77yM5LuW5Lul5Li65YmN5ZCD55qE5rK55rO86Z2i5piv5LiK5ZGo55qE77yM5Lul5Li65LiJ5YmN55qE5qKm5piv5pio5pma5YGa55qE44CC5LiA5YiH5paw6bKc55qE44CB6YeN6KaB55qE44CB6Zq+5b+Y55qE5Lq65oiW5LqL77yM5aaC5qKm5Lit6Iqx44CB5rC05Lit5pyI44CC5pe26Ze06LaK5LmF5LuW6LaK5YiG5LiN5riF5qWa5omA6LCT55qE55yf5a6e5ZKM6Jma5bm777yM5LuW55yf5a6e55qE55Sf5rS75YOP5aSE5LqO5beo5aSn55qE6Jma5bm75LmL5Lit77yM6ICM6YKj6JKZ5pip5LmL6Ze055qE44CB55m95pel5qKm6YeM55qE44CB6YWS6YaJ5pym6IOn5Lit55qE6Jma5bm75YCS5YOP5piv55yf5a6e55qE44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

如今反思，来深圳的这半辈子，好也罢坏也罢摆摆手无所谓了。眼下吃饭、喝酒、睡觉的模式和过去吃饭、工作、睡觉的模式，在漫漫无边的时光之中，没有分别。重复的生活令他产生错乱，他记不住昨和前有什么分别，他以为前吃的油泼面是上周的，以为三前的梦是昨晚做的。一切新鲜的、重要的、难忘的人或事，如梦中花、水中月。时间越久他越分不清楚所谓的真实和虚幻，他真实的生活像处于巨大的虚幻之中，而那蒙昩之间的、白日梦里的、酒醉朦胧中的虚幻倒像是真实的。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

现实中，很多人过着与他一样的生活——年复一年、代复一代。身体被困在特定的环境里，大脑只接受特定范畴里的事物——吃的、穿的、用的、工作的。这些人分不清去年的五一和前年的五一、混淆了去爬山是哪一个周末、记不住每年的夏至、忙不完重复的工作、串不通几十年的生命……重复——年复一年的重复，无法让人记住生命的全部，反倒如痴呆症一般催人失去生命的大量片段。回首过去，多少美好的时光好像不存在、未发生、是假的一样。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pel5a2Q5LmF5LqG44CB5bm05bKB5rex5LqG77yM5oGp5oCo5oOF5LuH44CB5YWJ5oCq6ZmG56a744CB5rKJ5rWu5L+v5Luw77yM5piv5a6e5piv6Jma77yM5pyJ5L2V5YiG5Yir77yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

日子久了、年岁深了，恩怨情仇、光怪陆离、沉浮俯仰，是实是虚，有何分别？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5oKy77yBPC9wPg=='));</script>

悲！<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

人体是一个多么精密又神奇的机器啊。吃进去的东西会转化成各种养分，生病了机体拥有强大的自愈功能，何时醒、何时睡有稳定的生物钟，抑郁了焦虑了有自我调节的神经官能……人类的高端身体从人类一出生便设定好的？非也；在人类还没有出生时基因里提前设定好的？非也；那该是从人类还不是人类的时候已经设定好了吧——钟能如是猜想。只可惜，几百万年进化出来的这般发达的神器，注定一死。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5oKy77yB6Iez6Jma6Iez5a6e77yM5Y+K5aSn5Y+K77yM6L+c6L+R77yM5peg5LiN5oKy5YeJ77yBPC9wPg=='));</script>

悲！至虚至实，及大及，远近，无不悲凉！<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

女儿梅梅现今考上了大学，毕业后兴师动众地找份工作，混个半辈子也许还买不了一套房子。哪个考上大学的孩子不觉人生曼妙不可期，十年后呢？看清群体规则之后的中年人还会觉得人生不可限量吗？这里的人生，从一套房子起。而一套房子，从出身起。出身又从何起呢？儿子学成呢，他的未来不过是对当代饶一种重复罢了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG5oKy6KeC77yM5LiN5piv5Zug5Li65LuW5aSx6LSl77yM6ICM5piv5Zug5Li65LuW5Zyo5q275Lqh55qE5rK85rO96YeM5peg5pWw5qyh56ql6KeB5LqG5Lq655Sf6L+Z6YGT6aKY55uu55qE5pyA57uI562U5qGI44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟理悲观，不是因为他失败，而是因为他在死亡的沼泽里无数次窥见了人生这道题目的最终答案。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5p6B5bqm55qE5oKy6KeC5ZKM5p6B6LWM5pq06LqB5ZCI5oiQ5LqG546w5Zyo55qE6ZKf55CG44CC6bq755e555qE5LuW5omN5piv5pyA5riF6YaS55qE77yM5Lqm5piv5pyA55eb6Ium55qE44CC5bm06L+R5Y2K55m+55qE6ZKf55CG6L+e5a6z5oCV6L+Z56eN5by654OI55qE5oOF57uq5Lmf5peg5rOV6L6T5Ye677yM6bq755e55LqO5LuW6ICM6KiA5piv5pyA5a6J5YWo55qE54q25oCB44CC5omA5Lul77yM6YWS5ZCO55qE5LuW5rKh5pyJ5b275aSc5aSx55yg77yM5rKh5pyJ5oO25oGQ5b+D5oK477yM5rKh5pyJ5oiY5oiY5YWi5YWi44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

极度的悲观和极赌暴躁合成了现在的钟理。麻痹的他才是最清醒的，亦是最痛苦的。年近半百的钟理连害怕这种强烈的情绪也无法输出，麻痹于他而言是最安全的状态。所以，酒后的他没有彻夜失眠，没有惶恐心悸，没有战战兢兢。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5b+96KeJ5ZCO6IOM5Yaw5YeJ77yM6ZKf55CG5oOz5oyk5Ye65Lqb5Yqb6YeP6K6p6Lqr5a2Q5oy6552A4oCU4oCU5Zug5Li65LuW6KeJ552A5Z2Q552A5ZGV5ZCQ55u45q+U6Lq6552A5ZGV5ZCQ5pu05LyY6ZuF5LiA5Lqb44CC6IOD6YeM57+75rGf5YCS5rW377yM5aWI5L2V5LuW5q275rS76LW35LiN5p2l44CC5Lq655Sf5bey54S25aaC5q2k77yM6Lq6552A5ZGV5ZCQ5Lmf6KGM5ZCn44CC5L2c5ZGV6K645LmF77yM5ZCQ5LiN5Ye65p2l77yM5pW05Liq5Lq65oG25b+D5aS05pmV5b6X5Y6J5a6z44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

忽觉后背冰凉，钟理想挤出些力量让身子挺着——因为他觉着坐着呕吐相比躺着呕吐更优雅一些。胃里翻江倒海，奈何他死活起不来。人生已然如此，躺着呕吐也行吧。作呕许久，吐不出来，整个人恶心头晕得厉害。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

每一次大醉，如同死去。他想要在临死前念一些美好的事情，蓦地想不起来，能忆起来的都是割饶刀刃，他不敢想也耻于想。此时此刻，大脑麻醉、关节生锈、身体僵硬，整个人像雕塑一样，无法动弹。肉身像气球一样一戳就破，像鸡蛋一样一拍就散。可悲的是，第二他总会醒来，在腐臭中醒来继续过无望的人生。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Ly85pu+55u46K+G77yBPC9wPg=='));</script>

似曾相识！<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Lik5LiJ5Liq5pyI5Lul5YmN77yM5LuW5Ly85LmO5Zyo6L+Z6YeM6YaJ5YCS6L+H44CC5rKh6ZSZ77yM56Gu5a6e5aaC5q2k44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

两三个月以前，他似乎在这里醉倒过。没错，确实如此。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

同样的时间，同样的地方、同样的姿势、同样的麻醉……问今晚谁来接他呢？钟理想起了晓星，无法不想起她。那一晚，他酒后醉倒在这里，老陶打电话找晓星，晓星来了。朦胧中，钟理记得晓星在这里走来走去、走来走去，后来他听她轻轻啜泣——钟理分不清虚实，因为他常见她哭、常想着她哭也常梦到她哭。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5YiG5LiN5riF5LuW6YWS5ZCO5bm75oOz552A5pmT5pif5Zyo6L276L275ZWc5rOj77yM6L+Y5piv55yf5pyJ5q2k5LqL77yM6L+Y5piv6K6w5b+G6ZSZ5Lmx6KOB5Ymq5ou85YeR77yM6L+Y5piv6YWS5Lit5qKm5qKm5Lit5Y+I5qKm4oCm4oCm5Y+N5q2j77yM5LuW6Lq65Zyo5Zyw5LiK6YaJ5b6X5LiN55yB5Lq65LqL77yM5pmT5pif5Zyo5LuW6Lqr6L656L276L275ZWc5rOj55qE6L+Z5LiA5bmV77yM6ZKf55CG5bi45bi45Zyo6ISR5rW35Lit5rWu546w44CC5pe26Ze05LmF5LqG77yM5Zue5b+G44CB5bm75oOz44CB5qKm5aKD5aaC5rWG57OK5LiA6Iis5pCF5oiQ5LiA55aZ55ip44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他分不清他酒后幻想着晓星在轻轻啜泣，还是真有此事，还是记忆错乱裁剪拼凑，还是酒中梦梦中又梦……反正，他躺在地上醉得不省人事，晓星在他身边轻轻啜泣的这一幕，钟理常常在脑海中浮现。时间久了，回忆、幻想、梦境如浆糊一般搅成一疙瘩。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6K+l5q2777yM5LuW56uf54S26L+Z5LmI6L+Z5LmI5oOz5b+15pmT5pif77yM5oOz5b6X5o+q5b+D77yM5oOz5b6X6Zq+5Y+X77yM5oOz5b6X5ZGc5ZGc5aSn5ZOt6LW35p2l44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

该死，他竟然这么这么想念晓星，想得揪心，想得难受，想得呜呜大哭起来。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5pma5LiK5Yqg54+t5Zue5a626Lev6L+H55qE5Lq655yL5LuW5aaC5q2k77yM5pac552A6Lqr5a2Q5LuO5LuW6Lqr6L656LWw6L+H44CC5Lq65Lus5a+56Z2e5bi45LmL5Lq65oC75oCA552A6Z2e5bi45LmL5o+j5rWL44CC5LuW5LiN6L+H5piv5Liq5Lit5bm06YWS6ay877yM6KeB552A55qE5Lq656uL5Yi757uZ5LuW6ZmE5Yqg5LiK5LqG54qv572q44CB56We57uP55eF44CB5oGQwrfmgJbCt+WIhuWtkOetieetieeLsOeLnueahOWktOihlOOAguWPr+eskeS4luadg+Wmgum8oO+8jOingeWPr+aAleeahOW9k+S7luaYr+ixuueLvO+8jOingeWvjOi0teeahOiupOS7luaYr+eah+W4ne+8jOingei0q+ept+eahOW9k+S7luaYr+avkuibh+OAgjwvcD4='));</script>

晚上加班回家路过的人看他如此，斜着身子从他身边走过。人们对非常之人总怀着非常之揣测。他不过是个中年酒鬼，见着的人立刻给他附加上了犯罪、神经病、恐·怖·分子等等狰狞的头衔。可笑世权如鼠，见可怕的当他是豺狼，见富贵的认他是皇帝，见贫穷的当他是毒蛇。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW54m55Yir54m55Yir5oOz5aWz5YS/5qKF5qKF77yM5LuW5a+55LiN6LW35YS/5a2Q5ZKM54i25Lqy77yM5LuW6K+v5LqG5aa75a2Q5pmT5pif4oCm4oCm5q2k5Yi755qE5LuW6YWN5LiN5LiK5pu+57uP55qE576O5aW944CC5LiA5pak55qE5rOq5oiQ5LqG5LiA5pak55qE5oKU44CC5LiN5LiN5LiN77yM5Lq655Sf5pys5piv5LiA55uY54OC5qOL77yM54OC5qOL5pyJ5L2V5Y+v5oKy77yf5LuW5oOz5oiQ5Li66Zi/77yM57uI56m25LiN5piv6Zi/44CC5LuW5peg5rOV55So6YKj5Lqb6Jma5aS05YWr6ISR55qE5Lic6KW/57OK5byE6Ieq5bex44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他特别特别想女儿梅梅，他对不起儿子和父亲，他误了妻子晓星……此刻的他配不上曾经的美好。一斤的泪成了一斤的悔。不不不，人生本是一盘烂棋，烂棋有何可悲？他想成为阿，终究不是阿。他无法用那些虚头八脑的东西糊弄自己。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5ZCm5a6a5LqG5pW05Liq5LiW55WM77yM5Y205Zyo5ZCm5a6a5Lit5ZCm5a6a5Zyw5aSn5ZOt44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他否定了整个世界，却在否定中否定地大哭。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6IW55YaF57+75YCS77yM54yb54S26Ze05ZOm5ZGc4oCU4oCU5ZWK5ZGc4oCU4oCU5LiA5rup6IWQ5py95LuO6ZKf55CG5rGh5rWK55qE5Zi06YeM5rWB5Ye644CC5Yeg5YiG6ZKf5Lul5ZCO77yM5LuW5p2+5LqG5Y+j5rCU77yM55uW552A5p6V552A5Zyw77yM5ZG85Zmc552h5Y6744CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

腹内翻倒，猛然间哦呜——啊呜——一滩腐朽从钟理污浊的嘴里流出。几分钟以后，他松了口气，盖着枕着地，呼噜睡去。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5YeM5pmo5Lik54K55Y2K77yM6YWS6ay86YaS5LqG44CC57uV5byA5rGh5rWK77yM57yT57yT6LW36Lqr44CC6aOO5o6o552A5LuW5ryr5peg55uu55qE5Zyw6KGM6LWw77yM5ruh5Z+O55qE54Gv5YWJ5Li65LuW5YGa54m15byV77yM5pGG5Yqo55qE5b2x5a2Q5Li65LuW6Kej6Ze36YCX5LmQ44CC6L+Z5LiA5aSc5aW95q+U6L+Z5LiA55Sf77yM5aSc6YeM5q2k5Yi755qE5LuW5q2j5piv5ZG96YeM5q2k5pe255qE5LuW44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

凌晨两点半，酒鬼醒了。绕开污浊，缓缓起身。风推着他漫无目的地行走，满城的灯光为他做牵引，摆动的影子为他解闷逗乐。这一夜好比这一生，夜里此刻的他正是命里此时的他。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiN55+l6LWw5LqG5aSa5LmF77yM6LaK6LWw6LaK5riF6YaS77yM6LaK6LWw6LaK57K+56We44CC5peg55uu55qE55qE5LuW5p2l5Yiw5LqG5pmT5pif5omT5bel55qE6YKj5a626bq76L6j54Or6Zeo5Y+j44CC56qm5Yas6Z2S5Zyo54Gv5YWJ5Lit5q2j5riF55CG5Y6o5YW377yM5a2U5bmz5byv552A6IWw5omT5omr5Y2r55Sf44CC5piO55+l5pmT5pif5q2k5Yi75LiN5Zyo77yM5LuW6L+Y5piv5p2l5LqG77yM5Y+q5pyJ5aW55LiN5Zyo5LuW5omN5pWi5p2l44CC6ZKf55CG5Zyo6KGX6KeS6Lmy5LqG6K645LmF77yM5oCV6KKr5Y+R546w77yM6L2s6Lqr56a75byA44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

不知走了多久，越走越清醒，越走越精神。无目的的他来到了晓星打工的那家麻辣烫门口。窦冬青在灯光中正清理厨具，孔平弯着腰打扫卫生。明知晓星此刻不在，他还是来了，只有她不在他才敢来。钟理在街角蹲了许久，怕被发现，转身离开。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5YeM5pmo55qE56m65rCU54m55Yir5aW977yM5LuW5Y+M5omL5o+S5YWc77yM5LiA6Lqr5riF5YeJ44CC5q2l6KGM5LqG5Lik5Liq5pe277yM6ZKf55CG5Yiw5LqG5LiA5p2h5ruh5piv6bif5Y+r55qE5Zyw5pa544CC5LuW5oOz6LW35LqG5pe25YCZ77yM5pe25YCZ55qE5LmM6bim6Iiw5p+06Zeo44CB6ICB5byP6ZSB44CB5Zyf6Zmi5a2Q44CB5rOh5qGQ5qCR44CB5LuW5q+N5Lqy44CB5LuW5aSn77yI54i25Lqy77yJ4oCm4oCm5Zyo5rKJ55S45LmF6L+c55qE5Zue5b+G5Lit77yM5LuW5Y+M55y85pym6IOn5Zyw5Zyo5piP5pqX6YeM5Yed6KeG54i25Lqy55qE6IOM5b2x44CC5rKh6ZSZ77yM5pio5pma6KKr5LuW5o6A5YCS55qE6ICB5Lq644CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

凌晨的空气特别好，他双手插兜，一身清凉。步行了两个时，钟理到了一条满是鸟叫的地方。他想起了时候，时候的乌鸦舰柴门、老式锁、土院子、泡桐树、他母亲、他大（父亲）……在沉甸久远的回忆中，他双眼朦胧地在昏暗里凝视父亲的背影。没错，昨晚被他掀倒的老人。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+54i25Lqy5o+Q552A5omr5bia5pyd5Y2X5omr77yM5LuW5Zyo5YyX6L6577yM6Led56a754i25Lqy5Y2B5LqU57Gz55qE5LiA5qO15qCR5ZCO6Z2i44CC5LuW55uv552A5LuW77yM57Sn57Sn5Zyw55uv552A5LuW44CC5Yi56YKj5rOq55uu44CC5LuW5aSn6ICB5LqG44CC5peg5oOF5Zyw6ICB5LqG44CC6ICB5b6X5aSx5Y675LqG5LiA54m1PC9wPg=='));</script>

父亲提着扫帚朝南扫，他在北边，距离父亲十五米的一棵树后面。他盯着他，紧紧地盯着他。刹那泪目。他大老了。无情地老了。老得失去了一牵<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG576e5oOt6Iez5p6B77yM5oCV6KKr5Y+R546w77yM5Y+I56a75byA5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟理羞惭至极，怕被发现，又离开了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6L+Z5qyh77yM5LuW5Y675LqG5pyN6KOF5bqX4oCU4oCU5pmT5pif5LiK55m954+t55qE6YKj5a625pyN6KOF5bqX44CC562J5Yiw5LqG5LiD54K577yM6L+Y5piv5rKh5pyJ562J5p2l5pmT5pif44CC5pep6LW35LiK54+t55qE5Lq65aaC5rSq5rWB5LiA6Iis77yM5LuW6aG25LiN5L2P5rSq5rWB77yM5Zyo5aSn5Yab5Lit5L2O5aS06YCG6KGM77yM5LuT55qH56a75byA44CC5LiA5Yiw5a625YCS5aS05L6/552h77yM55u0552h5Yiw5LqG5Y2I5ZCO5LiJ54K544CC5bmz5Yeh55qE5LiA4oCU4oCU6ZKf55CG5bmz5Yeh55qE5LiA44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

这次，他去了服装店——晓星上白班的那家服装店。等到了七点，还是没有等来晓星。早起上班的人如洪流一般，他顶不住洪流，在大军中低头逆行，仓皇离开。一到家倒头便睡，直睡到了午后三点。平凡的一——钟理平凡的一。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5o6o6I2Q6YO95biC5aSn56We6ICB5pa95paw5LmmOjwvcD4='));</script>

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