50上 频暴打父恩瑕疵 畸形爱童心被蚀（1 / 2）

<h3>50上 频暴打父恩瑕疵 畸形爱童心被蚀（第1页）</h3><script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LiA56eS6K6w5L2P44CQeGlhb3lhbndlbnh1ZeOAkeeyvuW9qeaXoOW8ueeql+WFjei0ue+8geWRqOS6lOaZmuS4iu+8jOWSo+W9k+S4gOWjsO+8jOS5puaetuWAkuS6hu+8gTwvcD4='));</script>

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原来，学成跑到姐姐的屋里东翻西找，瞟到一本封面很好看的书想取下来，奈何自己个头不够，下面垫着脚上面伸着手，一不心把整个书架拽倒了。棱角磨旧、一处掉着木屑的书架框在了自己头上，几十本书哗啦啦地掉了一地。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+54i354i36ZKf6IO95Zyo5Y6o5oi/5rSX56KX77yM54i454i46ZKf55CG5ZCs5aOw5oSk5oSk5a+75Y6744CC5LiA6KeB6L+Z5Zy66Z2i77yM5LqM6K+d5LiN77yM5Ly45Ye65omL5L2/5Yqy5ZWq5ZWq5ZWq5Zyw5Y675omT5YS/5a2Q77yM6L655omT6L656aqC4oCc5L2c5Lia5YGa5a6M5LqG5ZCX77yf5aeQ5aeQ55qE5Lic6KW/5L2g57+75LuA5LmI57+777yB5om+5q275piv5LiN5piv77yf5oiR5Y+r5L2g57+777yB5Y+r5L2g5YaN57+777yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

爷爷钟能在厨房洗碗，爸爸钟理听声愤愤寻去。一见这场面，二话不，伸出手使劲啪啪啪地去打儿子，边打边骂“作业做完了吗？姐姐的东西你翻什么翻！找死是不是？我叫你翻！叫你再翻！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5a2m5oiQ5Y+M5omL5ouE552A5qGM5a2Q6IKp5LiK5aWX552A5Lmm5p6277yM5Y+q5Ly45Ye65p2l5LiA5Liq5aS077yM6KKr54i25Lqy5ZKj5ZKj5ZKj5Zyw5omH6ICz5YWJ44CB5o+q5aS05Y+R44CB5o6Q6ISW5a2Q4oCm4oCm5Yeg5YiG6ZKf6L+H5Y675LqG77yM54i454i45YGc5omL5LqG77yM5a2m5oiQ6KKr5omH5ZCR5bem5L6n55qE5aS06L+f6L+f5Zyw6L2s5LiN6L+H5p2l77yM5Y2h5L2P5LqG5LiA6Iis77yM5L6n6IS46IC46IKp77yM57q55Lid5LiN5Yqo44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

学成双手拄着桌子肩上套着书架，只伸出来一个头，被父亲咣咣咣地扇耳光、揪头发、掐脖子……几分钟过去了，爸爸停手了，学成被扇向左侧的头迟迟地转不过来，卡住了一般，侧脸耸肩，纹丝不动。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+54i25a2Q5Lik5aaC5q2k5YO15LqG5Lik5YiG6ZKf77yM5a2p5a2Q54i354i35ZKa5ZKa5ZOT6Lip552A5pen5qW85qKv6LeR5LiK5p2l5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

父子两如此僵了两分钟，孩子爷爷咚咚哓踩着旧楼梯跑上来了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5L2g5Y+I5omT5aiD5YS/5bmy5ZWl5Zie77yf5L2c5a295ZGA77yB5L2c5a295ZGA5LiA77yB4oCd6ZKf6IO96L+b5bGL57uV6L+H5YS/5a2Q5aWU5ZCR5a2Z5a2Q77yM5bCG5a2m5oiQ6Lqr5LiK55qE5p625a2Q6L276L275Y+W5LqG5LiL5p2l77yM6ICM5ZCO5LiA5oqK5oqx6L+H5a2m5oiQ55qE5aS05o2C5Zyo5oCA6YeM5rWB5rOq4oCU4oCU5rOj5LiN5oiQ5aOw44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“你又打娃儿干啥嘞？作孽呀！作孽呀一！”钟能进屋绕过儿子奔向孙子，将学成身上的架子轻轻取了下来，而后一把抱过学成的头捂在怀里流泪——泣不成声。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5LiA5YeA5om+6Iys5a2Q77yB5LuW5LiN5aW95aW95YaZ5L2c5Lia6LeR5Yiw6L+Z6YeM5bmy5LuA5LmI77yf4oCd6ZKf55CG5oCS5rCU5pyq5raI44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“一净找茬子！他不好好写作业跑到这里干什么？”钟理怒气未消。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5LuW6L+Y5piv5Liq5aiD5aiD5ZGA77yB5L2g5LiN6IO95omT5ZOH77yB5omT5Ye65q+b55eF5LqG5ZKL5Yqe77yf4oCd6ZKf6IO96L656L655pOm5rOq44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“他还是个娃娃呀！你不能打哇！打出毛病了咋办？”钟能边边擦泪。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG5ZCs5LiN5LiL5Y675LqG77yM6buY6buY5Zyw6L2s6Lqr56a75byA44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟理听不下去了，默默地转身离开。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5YmN5pma5LiK5omT44CB5pio5pma5LiK5omT44CB5LuK5Liq5pma5LiK5Y+I5omT4oCm4oCm5ZO85ZO85ZGc5ZGc4oCm4oCm4oCd6ZKf6IO95oqx552A5a2Z5a2Q5LiA6L655ZOt5LiA6L6577yM5oCA6YeM55qE5a2m5oiQ5LiN5rWB5rOq44CB5LiN5ZaY5rCU5Lqm5LiN5Yqo5by577yM5YOP5Y+q5ZGG54mb5LiA6Iis44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“前晚上打、昨晚上打、今个晚上又打……哼哼呜呜……”钟能抱着孙子一边哭一边，怀里的学成不流泪、不喘气亦不动弹，像只呆牛一般。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5YWr5bKB55qE5a2p5a2Q5Luw5pyb56qX5aSW77yM5bem55y8556q5b6X6ICB5aSn77yM5Y+z55y86KKr5omT5Yiw5LqG5pyJ5Lqb552B5LiN5byA77yM6aKR6aKR5Zyw55yo55y844CC6Lqr5p2/55im5byx5a6J6Z2Z5b6X5ZCT5Lq677yM6IS45LiK5q+r5peg5oKy5Lyk5LmL6Imy77yM5YOP5Liq5LiN6LCZ5LiW5LqL55qE5L2/5oiW5aSx5b+G55qE5a2p5a2Q5LiA5qC377yM5Lu/5L2b5pa55omN6KKr5omT55qE5Lq65bm25LiN5piv5LuW44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

八岁的孩子仰望窗外，左眼瞪得老大，右眼被打到了有些睁不开，频频地眨眼。身板瘦弱安静得吓人，脸上毫无悲伤之色，像个不谙世事的使或失忆的孩子一样，仿佛方才被打的人并不是他。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf6IO95ZOt5a6M5o+J5LqG5o+J5a2m5oiQ55qE6IS46JuL77yM5oqa5LqG5oqa5a2p5a2Q55qE5aS05Y+R44CB6KGj5pyN77yM5qOA5p+l5LqG5aS06YOo5ZKM6ISW5a2Q77yM6KeB57qi5LqG5LiA54mH5Y+I5LiA54mH77yM6KeC5a2p5a2Q5rKh5LuA5LmI5byC5qC377yM5b+D6YeM5p2+5LqG5Y2K5Y+j5rCU44CC5LuW5ouJ5a2m5oiQ5Z2Q5Zyo5qKF5qKF55qE56qE5bqK5LiK77yM6ICM5ZCO6Ieq5bex5LiA6L655oq55rOq5LiA6L655pW055CG5Zyw5LiK55qE5Lmm44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟能哭完揉了揉学成的脸蛋，抚了抚孩子的头发、衣服，检查了头部和脖子，见红了一片又一片，观孩子没什么异样，心里松了半口气。他拉学成坐在梅梅的窄床上，而后自己一边抹泪一边整理地上的书。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6IGU5oOz6L+R5q616ZKf55CG55qE5omA5L2c5omA5Li677yM6ICB5aS05Zi05LiK5b+N5LiN5L2P5oqx5oCo4oCc6L+Z5Lmm5p625bey57uP5Y2B5p2l5bm05LqG77yM5bCx5piv5LiN5Yqo5by55Lmf5b+r5Z2P5LqG77yM5Li65LiA5Liq56C05p625a2Q6Iez5LqO5omT5a2p5a2Q5ZCX77yf5aiD5Ymp6aWt5LqG6aqC5Lik5Y+l77yM5o6J5Lic6KW/5LqG5ZC85Lik5LiL77yM6L+Z5Y2B5LqG5omT5aiD5YS/5omT5LqG5qyh77yB6L+Z5piv5b2T54i455qE5Lq65ZCX77yf5re36LSm5Lic6KW/4oCm4oCm4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

联想近段钟理的所作所为，老头嘴上忍不住抱怨“这书架已经十来年了，就是不动弹也快坏了，为一个破架子至于打孩子吗？娃剩饭了骂两句，掉东西了吼两下，这十了打娃儿打了次！这是当爸的人吗？混账东西……”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf6IO96Lmy5Zyo5Zyw5LiK77yM6Z2i5pyd6Zeo5Y+j77yM5ZSn5ZSn5ZOd5ZOd5LqG5Y2K5pmM77yM5piv57uZ6ZKf55CG5ZCs55qE44CC5LiN5ZCs5YiZ5bey77yM5LiA5ZCs5o+q5b+D44CC5Y6f5p2l6Ieq5bex5pyA6L+R5Yeg5LmO5omT5YS/5a2Q77yM5omT5b6X6L+Z5LmI6aKR57mB77yM5Y205oC75piv6K6w5LiN5L2P5LuW5omT6L+H5LuW44CC5Li65LuA5LmI77yf6ZKf55CG5Z2Q5Zyo5rKZ5Y+R5LiK5oOK5oGQ5Zyw6Ieq6Zeu5Li65LuA5LmI5LuW5omT5YS/5a2Q6L+Y6KeJ552A6Ieq5bex5a+55YS/5a2Q5LiN6ZSZ77yf5Li65LuA5LmI5LuW5Lid5q+r5LiN6K6w5b6X6Ieq5bex6L+e5pel5p2l5LiA55u05Zyo5omT5LuW77yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟能蹲在地上，面朝门口，唧唧哝哝了半晌，是给钟理听的。不听则已，一听揪心。原来自己最近几乎打儿子，打得这么频繁，却总是记不住他打过他。为什么？钟理坐在沙发上惊恐地自问为什么他打儿子还觉着自己对儿子不错？为什么他丝毫不记得自己连日来一直在打他？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

那学成去厨房开火不知干什么，弄完了忘了关火，火烧了十来分钟，把火上的锅盖烤变形了——那次打得很重，目的是给他个教训，只记得打了头、打了脸、踢了屁股。昨放学回来他很渴，家里没有冷水喝，爷爷烧的开水他嫌凉得慢，于是将一玻璃缸的热水放在了冰箱里，没一会听到咔嚓一声——这次他记得他只扇了他几个耳光。前段时间有一次他不心绊倒了垃圾桶，垃圾桶里的烟灰烟头、酒瓶酒盖、剩菜果皮铺了一地——隐约记得没忍住重重地踢了他好几脚。暑假里有回他玩姐姐的电脑把电脑弄得蓝屏了，那次下手真得很重，用拳打背、扇头、踹屁股……<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG5pOm5LqG5pOm55y85rOq77yM54K554eD5LqG5LiA5pSv54Of44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟理擦了擦眼泪，点燃了一支烟。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

作为父亲，他不爱孩子吗？每回打了儿子他无不愧疚，的时候打完了总在学成边上安抚安抚、教教，不知哪一年起，这个程序省了。儿子像只老鼠一样，对自己这个父亲害怕极了。孩子对他的极端恐惧像刀尖一样扎得他疼。他不敢靠近他，因为一靠近他像只如临大敌的狗一样眼里是警戒；他不敢抚摸他，因为一伸手他以为爸爸要打他身子由不得先一颤再一躲；他不敢跟他话或者开玩笑，因为儿子看自己的眼神、听自己的玩笑时好像是个聋哑人……学成永远跟自己隔着一两米的距离，永远用那双眼睛无声地盯着自己。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG55So5aSn5ouH5oyH5pOm5LqG5LiL5Y+z55y855qE5rOq5rC077yM54S25ZCO5pyd5Z6D5Zy+5qG26YeM5oqW5LqG5oqW54Of54Gw44CC5LuW5ZKs552A5Zi05ZSH77yM5Zyo5b+D6YeM6K6o5LyQ6Ieq5bex44CC5pe25YCZ5q+P5Zue5omT5a6M5LqG5a6J5oqa5YS/5a2Q5pe277yM5pG4552A5LuW5p+U6L2v55qE5omL77yM5LiA5qyh5Y+I5LiA5qyh5Zyw5oqa5pG45LuW55qE55yJ5q+b44CB6IS46JuL44CB6by75a2Q44CB5Zi05ZSH4oCm4oCm5LuW5piv6YKj5LmI5YOP6Ieq5bex77yM5YOP5b6X5LuW5pyJ5Lqb5a6z5oCV44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟理用大拇指擦了下右眼的泪水，然后朝垃圾桶里抖了抖烟灰。他咬着嘴唇，在心里讨伐自己。时候每回打完了安抚儿子时，摸着他柔软的手，一次又一次地抚摸他的眉毛、脸蛋、鼻子、嘴唇……他是那么像自己，像得他有些害怕。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW54ix5LuW44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他爱他。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5o6n5Yi25LiN5L2P6Ieq5bex44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他控制不住自己。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5piv5Liq5Z2P54i25Lqy44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他是个坏父亲。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6L+Z5Lqb5bm077yM6Zmk5LqG6aqC5LuW5LuW5Yeg5LmO5rKh5Yay5YS/5a2Q6L+H5LuA5LmI5aW96K+d77yb6Zmk6L+H5omT5LuW5LuW5Yeg5LmO5rKh6Kem56Kw6L+H5YS/5a2Q55qE5q+b5Y+R44CC6Ieq5bex6L+Z5piv5oCO5LmI5LqG77yf5Zue5aS057uG57uG5LiA566X77yM5rC05rSS5Zyo5bqK5LiK4oCU4oCU5omT77yM6KGj5pyN5o6J5Zyo5LqG56qX5aSW4oCU4oCU5omT77yM5byE5Z2P5LqG6KGM5p2O566x4oCU4oCU5omT77yM55yL55S16KeG5rKh5a6M5rKh5LqG4oCU4oCU5omT77yM5pqR5YGH5bC/5LqG5LiA5qyh5bqK4oCU4oCU5LuW5LqM6K+d5LiN54ug54ug5Zyw5omT4oCm4oCmPC9wPg=='));</script>

这些年，除了骂他他几乎没冲儿子过什么好话；除过打他他几乎没触碰过儿子的毛发。自己这是怎么了？回头细细一算，水洒在床上——打，衣服掉在了窗外——打，弄坏了行李箱——打，看电视没完没了——打，暑假尿了一次床——他二话不狠狠地打……<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

上学期末给他买了一次麦当劳的早餐，花了很多钱，结果他一出店把吃的掉在霖上，钟理克制不住伸手打了四巴掌，打完之后才晓得自己做了什么事儿。他愧疚地安慰儿子、提醒学成赶紧走别让周围人看笑话，谁知学成愣在那里一动不动，一动不动。他把学成扯到了路边无饶树下，他还是一动不动。钟理那吓坏了。那一刻他恨不得跑到街上被车撞死算了——他当时果真那般想过，有过那般的冲动。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6K6w5b+G5pyA5rex55qE5piv77yM5pyJ5LiA5Zue54i25a2Q5Lik5b6F5Zyo5LiA5Liq5rKZ5Y+R5LiK77yM6ZKf55CG5Ly45omL5pyd56m65Lit5oqT6JqK5a2Q77yM6ZqU552A5LiA57Gz6L+c55qE5a2m5oiQ5p2h5Lu25Y+N5bCE5Zyw5o2C552A5aS06YOo44CB6Zeq6L+c6Lqr5a2Q44CB5Zue5aS055uv552A5LuW44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

记忆最深的是，有一回父子两待在一个沙发上，钟理伸手朝空中抓蚊子，隔着一米远的学成条件反射地捂着头部、闪远身子、回头盯着他。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW54ix5LuW44CC5Y+v5piv77yM5LuW5o6n5Yi25LiN5L2P6Ieq5bex44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他爱他。可是，他控制不住自己。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5oOz6KaB5LiA5Liq5LuA5LmI5qC355qE5YS/5a2Q5ZGi77yf5ZCs6K+d55qE44CB5oeC5LqL55qE44CB5oiQ54af55qE44CB6IGq5piO55qE44CB5LyY56eA55qE4oCm4oCm5Lmf6K646L+Z5LiW55WM5LiK5rKh5pyJ5Lu75L2V5LiA5Liq5YWr5bKB55qE5a2p5a2Q5Y+v5Lul5ruh6Laz5LuW44CC5pe25LiN5pe25Zyo5a626YeM556l6KeB55qE5a2m5oiQ5ruh55uu5b+n5Lyk5ZKM5b+n6YOB77yM6YKj56We5oOF5ZCT5b6X6ZKf55CG6Ieq5oiR5oCA55aR44CC5LuW5LiN55+l6YGT6Ieq5bex5oCO5LmI5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他想要一个什么样的儿子呢？听话的、懂事的、成熟的、聪明的、优秀的……也许这世界上没有任何一个八岁的孩子可以满足他。时不时在家里瞥见的学成满目忧伤和忧郁，那神情吓得钟理自我怀疑。他不知道自己怎么了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5q+P5q+P5a2m5oiQ5LiA55Sf55eF77yM5LuW5piv5a626YeM5pyA552A5oCl55qE77yb5YS/5a2Q5Zyo5aSW6Z2i5Y+X5LqG5Lyk77yM5LuW5piv5pyA5r+A5Yqo55qE77yb5a2m5oiQ5Zyo5a2m5qCh5Y+X5LqG5aeU5bGI77yM5LuW5piv5pyA5oSk5oCS55qE4oCm4oCm5LuW5Lul5Li65LuW5b6F5LuW5piv5aW955qE77yM5Y+v5a2p5a2Q6Z2i5Li055qE5pyA5aSn55qE5Y2x5a6z56uf5piv5LuW6L+Z5Liq5Lqy55Sf54i25Lqy44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

每每学成一生病，他是家里最着急的；儿子在外面受了伤，他是最激动的；学成在学校受了委屈，他是最愤怒的……他以为他待他是好的，可孩子面临的最大的危害竟是他这个亲生父亲。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW55qE5oSk5oCS6K6p5LuW5Y+Y5oiQ5aaW6a2U77yM5LuW5oGo6Ieq5bex44CC6ZKf55CG55yf5biM5pyb5q+P5q+P5LuW5omT5a2p5a2Q55qE5pe25YCZ5Lmf5pyJ5Lq65p2l5omT5LuW77yb5LuW5biM5pyb5q+P5q+P5LuW5Y+R5oCS55qE5pe25YCZ5pyJ5Lq66IO95oyh5Zyo5Lit6Ze05bCG5a2p5a2Q5a6J5ouJ5byA44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

他的愤怒让他变成妖魔，他恨自己。钟理真希望每每他打孩子的时候也有人来打他；他希望每每他发怒的时候有人能挡在中间将孩子安拉开。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5LuW5piv5aaW6a2U77yM5LuW5Lmf5piv6IOG5oCV5LqL55qE44CC6ZKf55CG5pWw5Y2B5qyh5qOA5p+l6L+H5YS/5a2Q55qE6Lqr5L2T77yM5oOz55yL55yL5Yiw5bqV6Ieq5bex5pyJ5rKh5pyJ5oqK5YS/5a2Q5omT5Lyk5LqG77yM5bqG5bm45Y+q5piv5Y+R57qi77yB5bqG5bm45Y+q5piv5Y+R57qi5oiW5Y+R6Z2S77yB5LuW55So5ZCM562J55qE5Yqb6YGT5Zyo6Ieq5bex6Lqr5LiK6K+V6L+H5pWw5Y2B5qyh4oCU4oCU5omH6ICz5YWJ44CB5omT6IW/44CB5ouN5aS04oCU4oCU5Y6f5p2l55yf5b6X5b6I55a877yBPC9wPg=='));</script>

他是妖魔，他也是胆怕事的。钟理数十次检查过儿子的身体，想看看到底自己有没有把儿子打伤了，庆幸只是发红！庆幸只是发红或发青！他用同等的力道在自己身上试过数十次——扇耳光、打腿、拍头——原来真得很疼！<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Y6f5p2l55yf5b6X5b6I55a877yB5Li65L2V5YS/5a2Q5LiN6Lqy6Zeq44CB5LiN5aSn6Iiw5LiN5ZOt5ZaK5ZGi77yfPC9wPg=='));</script>

原来真得很疼！为何儿子不躲闪、不大舰不哭喊呢？<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+6ZKf55CG5pOm5LqG5pOm5rOq77yM5q2k5Yi75LuW55yf5oOz54ug54ug5Zyw5omH6Ieq5bex4oCU4oCU5omH5Yiw5q275Li65q2i44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

钟理擦了擦泪，此刻他真想狠狠地扇自己——扇到死为止。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

为什么他从来不会打梅梅？为什么？钟理困惑。每一次怒扇儿子的原因，无不是他的过失造成了损失、制造了混乱、带来了危险。所以，折掉的金钱、他内心的秩序、家里的安比他的亲生儿子还重要吗？为什么他潜意识里认为女儿雪梅是高于一切的？家里的物件儿、他搭建的秩序、他自身的安远不及雪梅的万分之一重要。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('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'));</script>

钟理恐惧的是人很难改变自己的潜意识。而他的潜意识对儿子的认知又是什么呢？他爱女儿多于儿子，他承认，这不假。可他内心深处安置给儿子的地位、分出给儿子的爱让他惶恐。他那么像他，他那么黏他，他那么软弱……他像只胆怯的猫一样，蜷在自己身边，忍受着父亲的喜怒无常、残暴冷酷。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5ZGo5YWt5LiA5pep5L2V6Ie06L+c5pep5pep5LiK54+t5Y675LqG77yM6ICB6ams6LW35bqK5bey57uP5LiJ5Liq6ZKf5aS05LqG77yM5a626YeM5aeL57uI5rKh5LiA54K55Yqo6Z2Z44CC6Zeo5Lmf5pWy5LqG44CB5oiP5Lmf5pS+5LqG77yM5Lmd54K55Y2K5LqG6L+Y5piv5rKh5Lq66LW35p2l77yM6ICB6ams5Y+q6IO96Ieq5bex56m/5aW96KGj5pyN5Ye65Y675Lmw5pep6aSQ5LqG44CC5Y2B54K55aSa5aSn5YyF5YyF5Zyw5ouO5Zue5p2l5Lul5ZCO77yM5qGC6Iux6Lq65Zyo5rKZ5Y+R5LiK5Zub5Luw5YWr5Y+J5Zyw5Yi35omL5py677yM5LuU5LuU5oqx552A5p6V5aS06L+Y5Zyo5bGL6YeM552h6KeJ77yM5ry+5ry+6Lef5Liq6Zu36ZyH5a2Q5LiA5qC36JOs5aS05Z2Q5Zyw44CB5omj552A6by75bGO44CB5Zi06YeM5aaW5aOw5oCq5rCU44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

周六一早何致远早早上班去了，老马起床已经三个钟头了，家里始终没一点动静。门也敲了、戏也放了，九点半了还是没人起来，老马只能自己穿好衣服出去买早餐了。十点多大包包地拎回来以后，桂英躺在沙发上四仰八叉地刷手机，仔仔抱着枕头还在屋里睡觉，漾漾跟个雷震子一样蓬头坐地、扣着鼻屎、嘴里妖声怪气。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6L+Z5Y+r6L+H5pel5a2Q5ZCX77yf4oCd6ICB6ams5Zif5ZuU552A5pS+5aW95pep6aSQ77yM6LCB5Lmf5LiN5Y+r77yM6Ieq5bex5YWI5ZCD44CC5ry+5ry+6Ze7552A5ZGz5YS/6L+H5p2l5LqG77yM6aW/5b6X5aiD5YS/5omL5Lmf5LiN5rSX5oqT5Yiw5Liq5YyF5a2Q5b6E55u05b6A5Zi06YeM5aGe44CC5Yiw5LqG5b+r5Y2B5LqM54K577yM6K+l5piv5YGa6aWt55qE5pe25YCZ5LqG77yM5qGC6Iux6L2s5Zyw5YS/6Lq65Zyo6Ieq5bex5bqK5LiK5o2n552A5omL5py66L+Y5piv5LiN5Yqo5by577yM6ICB6ams5YKs5LqG5Lik5Zue5omN5oWi5oKg5oKg5Zyw5Ye65p2l5LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“这叫过日子吗？”老马嘟囔着放好早餐，谁也不叫，自己先吃。漾漾闻着味儿过来了，饿得娃儿手也不洗抓到个包子径直往嘴里塞。到了快十二点，该是做饭的时候了，桂英转地儿躺在自己床上捧着手机还是不动弹，老马催了两回才慢悠悠地出来了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Yiw5LqG5a6i5Y6F5rKZ5Y+R5omR6YCa5LiA5aOw5Y+I6Lq65LiL5p2l5oqx552A5omL5py655yL77yM6KeB6ICB5aS055uv552A5aW555y85Lit5bim5oCS77yM5qGC6Iux5LiN5b+Y5Yay552A6ICB5aS05oyv5oyv5pyJ6K+N4oCc5Y2B54K55omN5ZCD5LqG5pep6aSQ5Y2I6aWt5oCl5LuA5LmI77yf4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

到了客厅沙发扑通一声又躺下来抱着手机看，见老头盯着她眼中带怒，桂英不忘冲着老头振振有词“十点才吃了早餐午饭急什么？”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc6YKj5L2g6L+Z5pmM5Y2I6aWt5ZCD5Yiw5Yeg54K577yf4oCd6ICB6ams55qx55yJ6Zeu44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“那你这晌午饭吃到几点？”老马皱眉问。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5pmM5Y2I6aWt6IKv5a6a5piv5ZCD5Yiw5pmM5Y2I77yB546w5Zyo5piv5Lit5Y2I77yB5L2g6KaB5pCe5riF5pe26Ze054K55YS/77yB5L2g5Zyo5p2R6YeM5ZCD5pmM5Y2I6aWt5LiN5Lmf5piv5Lik54K55aSa5ZCX77yf5oCl5LuA5LmI5ZGA77yB4oCdPC9wPg=='));</script>

“晌午饭肯定是吃到晌午！现在是中午！你要搞清时间点儿！你在村里吃晌午饭不也是两点多吗？急什么呀！”<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oeS5b6X5b6I77yB5LiA77yB4oCd6ICB6ams6b6H54mZ5ZKn5Zi05Zyw5a6M77yM5rCU5b6X5oyk55yJ5byE55y877yM5LiN5oOz6Lef5aW55aSa5o6w5omv77yM6LW36Lqr5Y676Ziz5Y+w5pGH5qSF5LiK5Z2Q552A6aG65rCU5Y675LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“懒得很！一！”老马龇牙咧嘴地完，气得挤眉弄眼，不想跟她多掰扯，起身去阳台摇椅上坐着顺气去了。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+4oCc5oiR5oCO5LmI5oeS5LqG77yB5oiR6L+Z5LiA5ZGo5rKh5LiK54+t5ZCX77yf6L+Z5Lik5ZGo5a626YeM5pSS55qE5a625Yqh5piv6LCB5bmy55qE77yf5oiR6ZyA6KaB5LiA5Liq5ZCv5Yqo55qE5Yqo5py677yB5L2g5LiL5Zyw5bmy5rS75YmN5LiN5Lmf5piv5YWI5oq954Of5Zib77yB4oCd5qGC6Iux5Zif5ZuU552A6L+Y5Zi044CCPC9wPg=='));</script>

“我怎么懒了！我这一周没上班吗？这两周家里攒的家务是谁干的？我需要一个启动的动机！你下地干活前不也是先抽烟嘛！”桂英嘟囔着还嘴。<script>document.writeln(qsbs.bb('PHA+5Lit5Y2I5Y2B5LiA54K577yM54aZ54aZ5pSY5pSY55qE5aSn6LaF5biC6YeM77yM5YyF5pmT5qOg5q2j5Zyo5aSn6YeH6LSt4oCU4oCU5Lik5pak6buE54mb6IKJ44CB5Lik5pak5LqU6Iqx6IKJ44CB5Lik5pak5Yaw5Ya76Jm+77yM6L+Y5pyJ5Zyf6LGG44CB6Iq56I+c44CB5YyF6I+c44CB5pyo6ICz44CB57KJ5Lid44CB6LGG5Yi25ZOB4oCm4oCm5aW55o2h6YKj6IO95pS+55qE6aOf5p2Q5Lmw5LqG5Lik5aSn6KKL5a2Q77yM5Ye65LqG5ZWG5Zy655u05aWU5aeQ5aeQ5a625Y675LqG44CCPC9wPg=='));</script>